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listened to his even breaths. I imagined waking up next to him every morning and making love with him every night. How long until he realizes you aren’t enough for him, either?
    The voice in my head shook me back to reality. Maybe, someday, I would find a man who both loved me and enjoyed making love with me. The flimsy bandage he’d placed on my heart slowly peeled away.
    Self-pity turned to shame as the magnitude of my selfish actions sank in. I’d taken advantage of a perfectly nice guy, so I could forget my pain for a little while. I hadn’t bothered to consider his feelings. I had to leave. I couldn’t bear the thought of facing him after what I’d done. I didn’t want to risk seeing the regret that would fill his eyes in the morning light.
    I carefully pulled my legs out from under the covers, so I wouldn’t wake him. My head instinctively turned to the sound of a phone vibrating on the nightstand next to me. The picture that appeared on the screen caused my stomach to churn. A pair of extremely small breasts filled the screen. The worst part was the name of the sender: Future Wife. A few moments later, a call from Future Wife lit up the phone, followed by a voicemail notification.
    The man snoring softly beside me was engaged to be married. The man who’d been deep inside me for hours had promised his never-ending love and fidelity to someone else. His loving fiancée probably thought he was jerking off to the picture of her itty bitty titties when, in reality, he was lying in a hotel bed with me after having been fucked into a coma.
    My thoughts returned to Ethan. The thought of him in someone else’s bed hurt like a bitch, but at least he’d ended things with me before he acted. What my stranger had done was exponentially worse. The notion that I had unknowingly contributed to the future Mrs. Stranger’s devastation was the last thought I had as the glaring red numbers on the digital clock flipped over to midnight, ending the worst day of my life. It was way past time to leave.
    It didn’t take long to get dressed, because the few clothes I had were still in a pile near the door. I took one more look at the asshole spread out on the disheveled bed. I didn’t understand how he could sleep like a baby after committing the ultimate betrayal. I shut the door quietly behind me and fled to the elevator that would carry me two floors up to my room.

CHAPTER FIVE
    Madison
    The scorching rain from the showerhead beat down as I washed every inch of my body. No matter how hard I scrubbed, I couldn’t rid myself of his smell. My skin was almost as red as my car when I stepped out of the shower nearly an hour later, feeling just as dirty as I had when I’d stepped in.
    Both my faith and dignity had evaporated in less than twenty-four hours. I could hear my abuela chiding me from beyond the grave, “Chicas buenas no deben comportarse como putas.”
    “Yes, I know good girls shouldn’t behave like harlots,” I said as if my dead grandmother could hear me. “Maybe I’m not a good girl after all.” How could I be upset that he turned out to be a rat bastard when I had practically begged him to fuck me? I lay down on the hotel bed and closed my eyes, welcoming the darkness that enveloped my mind.
    *
    “I, Ethan, take you, Madison, as my wedded wife, to have and to hold from this day forward. I promise to love, honor, and cherish you, forsaking all others, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, as long as we both shall live.”
    Ryan winked at me over Ethan’s shoulder, his smile overflowing with love.
    “With this ring, I thee wed and pledge my love and faithfulness to only you forever.” A simple gold band slid onto my waiting finger.
    “I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride.”
    The familiar dream pulled me abruptly from my slumber. Coming to terms with my new reality would be next to impossible. I wasn’t sure how I could accept the fact that