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beautiful scent. "Like I said, maybe when high school is done.” I smile under my words, and it feels good to reject someone else rather than be the victim. As I pull away, he grabs and gently holds either side of my face, his hands in my hair. He pulls me closer, so that our lips are barely touching.
     “Ella, what are you doing to me?” his whisper is unraveling and I want to kiss him, but I won't, I can’t get hurt, not again.
     “Likewise, Luke.” I breathe back. I’m biting my bottom lip and our heartbeats and muttered breaths are all that is heard among the crickets and night animals. I feel confidence sweep me and I raise my hand to his heart.
     “Maybe one day, when high school and college is done and there is no-one to worry us, I can have this, Luke. To care and look after me, to love me. But for now, until that day, I can’t see you, because all I’ll want to do is hold your hand, kiss your lips, and sleep side-by-side with you. Breathe the same air as you, but we can’t, and our fate has been intervened. Maybe one day, but not today.” I climb to walk away and he pulls gently on my hand.
     “No, Ella-”
     “Bye, Luke.”
     “Please let me take you home. It’s the least I could do.” His voice sounds hurt and quiet.
     “Fine, I’ll have to walk to wherever this is in the morning.”
     “Ella, I said I’d pick you up and bring you back, and I will.” I climb off of his legs and walk around to open the passenger door. When he climbs into the driver's seat, he pauses.
“Ella, I don’t think I can just be your friend.” He sighs and shakes his head.
     “Then don’t be.” I whisper, a plea, a beg. The tension is back and it is driving us together, but neither of us a take a chance or a moment to notice and take control. I don't understand my words, what this is.
     “You know I can’t, Ella.” His tone is blunt and filled with hidden regret.
     “Why not? Because it’ll destroy your high school reputation? It’ll ruin your chance of being 'Prom King'? Everyone will laugh, and point, and stare at you? Welcome to my fucking world.” The anger in my voice subsides immediately. “You know what's funny? I voted for you to be Prom King, stupid huh?” I smile and stifle a laugh he joins in. When we stop, seriousness surrounds us again.
     “That's not the reason. None of those things you have just said are the reason.” His voice is shaken.
     “Then what?” What could he possibly mean? If he won't be ashamed of me?
     “I can't fall in love with you. Not now, give or take two or three months ago then maybe, but I can’t go to college and be in love.”
     “That's so selfish of you! Maybe I don’t want your love. I don’t want you if you really don’t want me. I feel, I don’t know what I feel, but ever since I looked at you and kissed you, I became entrapped with you. I just can’t forget you. Everything I have written today has been about you. You have captured me, Luke, like a hopeless butterfly caught in a net. What angers me the most, is that I can’t do anything about it. There is something I want to share with you before we only become, well, friends.”
     I open the door and walk toward my car. Luke leaves the headlights of his unnecessarily expensive jeep thing on so we can see what we are doing. I check my back pocket, and to my surprise, there are my keys, just sat there in my pocket. I pull them out and Luke studies me with dominance.
     “No, Luke, I’m not going to drive. I’m just going to put my iPod on.” I smile at him and he smiles back. I finally feel some relaxation after the whole charade. I put on the song that I think fits the moment. 'Heartbeats' fills our ears and a gentle soft guitar immediately makes me feel at ease. I climb onto the hood of my Mustang.
     “Who is this?” Luke asks.
     “Jose