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be well enough to go.
    Hey! Can’t
wait to see you too. Can’t go to the party. Sick. = [ Ugh. See you soon. <3
-S
    Snapping my
phone shut, I looked up automatically, breaking my vow, and instantly regretted
it. At the same moment I looked up, Sean looked in the mirror. His eyes were
full of sorrow and pain. My stomach clenched, but I knew I wasn’t going to be
sick again, even though I felt awful seeing him hurt. My phone buzzed again and
I broke from our painful gaze. I opened my phone to another message from Cara.
    =[ Bummer!
That sucks! Sorry. Call me when you get here. <3 -C
    I closed my
phone and stuck it back in my pocket. My iPod was almost dead so I turned it
off, but left the headphones in so it appeared like I was still listening to
it. I closed my eyes, though I knew I wasn’t going to get any more sleep.
    Everyone was
silent. I could just feel the emotions rolling off of everyone…pity, anger,
sadness, guilt.
    A phone rang. I
opened my eyes as Brian snatched it up quickly and answered it.
    “Hello?” There
was a pause. “Well, he’s driving. I didn’t think that you would want us to
crash. Yes, sir....um, I’m not sure.” He turned around and faced me. “Are you
feeling better Sam?”
    Someone must’ve
called them while I was on the side of the road. I just nodded. I couldn’t
speak without feeling that I was going to cry. Brian must have been upset with
me. Even with all their differences and fights, he and Sean had been best
friends since seventh grade. He turned back around to answer the caller.
    “Yes, sir, she
is. Yeah. We’re back on the road....we only lost about twenty minutes. We
should be there in about a half hour. ‘Kay. Bye.”
    “Thanks,” Sean
said quietly, the hurt solid in his voice.
    “You’re welcome.
It was your dad. I thought he’d be able to tell something was wrong.”
    “You didn’t have
to do that.”
    “Ya, I know. It’s
the least that I can do after....”
    “Hey, Brian. It’s
cool. Don’t worry about it.”
    So, all was well
between them, and I felt like crap.
    The rest of the
drive seemed to go by very slowly. We got stuck in traffic and Sean’s father
called again, wondering where we were. Sarah fell asleep. Brian and Sean joked
and talked like guys do. I was left out, not that I minded really; I wanted to
be by myself.
    I stared out the
window and watched the trees go by. There were little critters climbing up and
down the trees and through the bushes. They had life so easy. They didn’t have
to worry about much besides eating and mating season. Squirrels didn’t worry
about school and grades, parents and relationships. Simple-minded squirrels .
    Surprisingly, I
didn’t mind all that much that we were going to the cabin right now. I wanted
to be alone where no one would find me, to go for a long walk where no one
would be able to trace my steps, maybe even get lost and not have to deal with
the pain and confusion of this mess that I had gotten myself into. Actually, I
could do without getting lost. None of that was really what I wanted. I wanted
to stay and be a part of everything…except, I wanted him .For him
to love me , to be my boyfriend, to be there for me.
    Sighing, I took
a deep breath. I knew that wasn’t going to happen. Wanting him as much as I
did, I could only wish. In the end, it wasn’t going to happen, not in this
lifetime.
    We were getting
closer. The trees were starting to clear a little and the road that led to our
cabin made us veer to the left. I could see trails left behind by people who
walked through the forest to get away and think.
    I looked over at
Sarah who was peacefully sleeping. I didn’t want to wake her, but I’d have to.
    “Sarah...Sarah.
Wake up sleepy head.” She groaned at the nudging on her shoulder. She muttered
something unintelligible and opened her eyes. Leaning back, I closed my eyes. I
was feeling slightly better; still feeling a little nauseous, but maybe I’d go
to the party anyway.
    We pulled up