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truck. Now that I wasn’t about to
get sick, walking right next to the speeding cars didn’t seem like such a good
idea. I was right next to the front passenger door when he called me.
    “Sam....”
    I turned around.
He looked upset…troubled. I knew that he wanted to talk right now, but he still
caught me off guard. I wasn’t prepared. I’d barely managed to stop emptying my
stomach and he brought this up on me?
    “We need to talk
Sam. What happened last night was—”
    “Stop.”
    “But—”
    “I have one
question that will save us from this entire conversation.”
    “What’s that?”
    “Are you staying
with her?”
    The look on his
face said it all, but pulled me in nonetheless. I knew he wouldn’t leave her,
but maybe, just maybe, there was a small chance.
    “No, Sam, I’m
not leaving her.” His voice broke on the last word. He had struggled with his
decision…I could tell just from his tone. He loved her though.
    “Well, then,
there’s nothing to talk about.” The disappointment rang crystal clear in my dry
voice. I had set my hopes too high…I knew all along he wasn’t going to leave
her, yet I still hoped. My eyes stung with the tears that wanted to force their
way out, and my throat hurt while I fought back the urge. We were in front of
the truck now. Brian and Sarah could see everything that was going on.
    “Yes there is,”
Sean disagreed.
    “No, Sean, there
isn’t. I don’t know what you’re talking about. Nothing happened,” I told him
coldly, turning to walk back to the truck. I felt nauseous again, but this
time, it wasn’t health related. I knew that my statement had hurt him. The look
on his face clearly laid it all out for me to see. He didn’t want to just
forget it. He wanted it to mean something to both of us… and it did…but I wasn’t
going to let him know that. As much as I wanted him to know it really meant
something to me, I wasn’t going to show that I was vulnerable.
    I got in the
truck without his help. Brian and Sarah both looked at me questioningly. I just
shook my head and pulled my headphones back on. Closing my eyes, I tried not to
think about what had happened. The car shook lightly and I waited for the
engine to start, but it didn’t. Confused, I opened my eyes and looked around.
Brian and Sean were a few hundred feet from the truck. I glanced over at Sarah.
She motioned for me to take my headphones out. Reluctantly, I did.
    “Sam, what did you
say?” Sarah softly asked. She was never pushy about these kinds of things, but
it was obvious now that she had to know, so I explained to her what happened
and what I said.
    “Well, first
off, do you feel better?” Of course, she was worried about how I felt. That
only made me feel worse.
    “Well, health
wise, I feel tons better. Emotion wise, I feel tons worse.”
    “Well, I can’t
really say anything to make you feel better. Sorry.”
    I just nodded
and put my headphones back in. Whatever their problem was, Brian and Sean
seemed to be over it now, and were walking back toward the car. I composed
myself and my emotions and turned my music back on.
    I felt my phone
vibrate in my pocket. As I pulled it out, the car shook slightly. Knowing how
he would look at me, I didn’t look up as Sean started the car. Vowing to keep
my eyes off the rearview mirror the rest of the trip, I looked down at my phone
to see that Cara, my best friend, had sent me a message.
    Hey. Can’t
wait til you get here! BIG party tonight. You in? Let me know when you get
here! <3-C.
    Sighing, I
remembered her saying that there were always huge parties up at the cabins. A
lot of the rich kids at my school, including me, had parents that owned cabins
around the same lake. Many of them went up with no supervision…hence the
parties. I heard that they were a lot of fun, but still, I really wasn’t in the
mood. As much as I wanted to go so I could forget everything, even if just for
a little while, I still felt sick and I knew I wouldn’t