sir. Just doing my job.â
Cursing, I had to leave the car on the grass verge and run down the long drive to the studio. The MG had not been as fast as my Lancia, and I was late.
âWhat happened to you, boy?â asked Olivier as I panted into his dressing room.
âMy car broke down. Iâll have to sort it out at lunchtime.â I didnât dare mention what had really happened. âI donât think Marilyn will be in early,â I said. âRoger told me she had a pretty disturbed night.â
âWe âll have a pretty disturbed day if she doesnât show up. We shot all the simple stuff yesterday because she was so woolly. When is she going to recover her composure and start to work?â
âShe âs on her honeymoon, I suppose. Maybe that âs affecting her.â
âOh, nonsense, sheâs not a schoolgirl. And Arthurâs getting fed up too. He told me he needs a holiday already.â Olivier grimaced. âThe trouble is that she âs so damn moody, and she stays up most of the night. I pity Arthur. I wouldnât sleep with Marilyn for a million dollars, I can assure you of that.â
Nor her with you, I thought, but I said nothing.
Just before lunch, to everyoneâs surprise, and my great relief,
Marilyn did show up after all. The usual bunch of people materialised out of thin air to pester the poor lady, but I only had eyes for Evans, the chauffeur. I did not have time to worry about whether Marilyn had seen me the night before or not, but I did most urgently need to get the MG back to Ned. Even so, I was anxious to avoid Marilynâs direct gaze. She wears very dark glasses when she first arrives at the studio, and one can never be quite sure how much she can see. By the time she was ready to start work, I imagined, she would be thinking of nothing but her lines.
âWhere have you been?â asked David Orton suspiciously as I slipped back onto the stage an hour later, Evans having driven me back from Runnymede House.
âTummy upset,â I said.
He glowered, but I was home.
Filming that afternoon followed the now-familiar pattern. We all wait around the set under the âworkâ lights for Marilyn to appear. Every quarter of an hour, Olivier tells David to go to Marilynâs dressing room to ask when she will be ready. David is a professional of the old school. He believes in a chain of command.
âColin!â he shouts.
âYes, David?â
âGo to Miss Monroeâs dressing room and ask when she will be ready.â
This of course is her portable dressing room, right there on the studio floor. From the outside, the thing looks like a caravan on a building site. Inside it is all soft lights and beige fabrics, like Parkside House.
I tap on the thin metal door. The make-up man or the wardrobe lady answers my knock. âNot yet,â they whisper. It is as if we are all waiting for someone to give birth â and in a way, I suppose we are.
Finally, and without any warning, the doors fly open and Marilyn appears, looking absolutely gorgeous in the incredible white costume designed for her to wear in her role as the chorus girl Elsie Marina
by âBumbleâ Dawson. Her head is held high, she has a little smile on her lips, her huge eyes are open wide, and her gaze is fixed upon the set. Marilyn is ready. Marilyn is going to do it now, or die in the attempt.
A shout from David. (David has, and needs, a very loud voice, as there are over fifty impatient people present.)
âReady, studio!â
The film lights come on, one after another, with a series of terrific âclunksâ.
Marilyn looks startled. Paula, ever present an inch from her elbow, whispers something in her ear. Marilyn hesitates for a split second . . . and is lost.
Instead of going straight to her marks in front of the camera, she deflects to her âreclinerâ positioned nearby. Paula, the make-up man, the hair stylist and