court. Like youâve learned your lesson.â
âI learned my lesson all right,â Tremaynne said. âToo bad it was the wrong one.â There was a kind of mocking defiance in his voice and cocky manner.
âYou donât think weâre supposed to learn from our mistakes?â
âI donât make mistakes,â he said.
âEverybody makes mistakes.â
âEverything I do, I do for a reason,â he said. âWhereâs your car parked?â
âNot far.â
âYou want to drive me to the homeless shelter when Iâm out of here?â
I didnât know if he was joking or not. âYou donât live in a homeless shelter.â
âAre you inviting me to move in with you?â
The river was waiting. I closed my eyes and jumped in.
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The fact that weâd met in bankruptcy court always seemed kind of crazily romantic to me. Now an irritating little voice whispered: âThis man has no money and no credit cards. Like you, he doesnât know how to make money or keep money. Heâll never be able to support you; youâll probably end up supporting him.â
And did I really want a life committed to environmental activism? A life dedicated to saving trees instead of roaring around in a gas-guzzling SUV?
I looked down at my tattooed engagement ring, wondering why Iâd even asked him to marry me. Because if I was brutally brutally honest, Tremaynne Woods had nothing to offer except the best sex Iâd ever had in my life. He staked a claim on my body the first time we made love. When sex is that good, it has to mean something.
As I crouched there, petting him and wondering about our future, he opened one nut-colored eye and stared at me. Brushed his fingers along my cheek. âWhy you crying, babe?â
I shook my head. I really didnât know why I was blubbering. Sometimes life and who you are and what you want and what you end up with just seems like too much. Or too little.
Confusing.
Underneath all my doubts I did love him. The question was, why? He was strong but tender, with a secret vulnerability that made me want to take care of him. He was committed to something in a way I never had been. He seemed to exist in a larger picture, a larger world than mine.
âCome to bed.â He sat up and slowly began to undress me.
The futon was all warm and ready, just waiting for me to slide in between the sheets.
âHow was dinner with your dads?â Tremaynne asked as he slowly unbuttoned my blouse.
âI wish youâd been there.â
He pulled off my blouse and rested his head on my breasts. âMmmm. So warm. This is my dinner.â
âThey were so disappointed,â I said. And let out a sigh as he moved up and began nuzzling my neck. âIt was supposed to be a celebration.â
âI hope you had a good time,â he said, squatting behind me. He brushed my hair to one side and gave the back of my neck little love bites.
âI may as well tell you now,â I panted.
He reached around and popped my breasts out of the sexy little black French bra Iâd found on sale at Victoriaâs Secret. âLetâs not talk. Letâs just suck.â
He pulled me down to the bed and slid his tongue into my mouth. I had a sudden fear that my breath stank of coffee and cigarettes and the meat that I told him I didnât eat anymore. âYouâll laugh,â I said, pulling away.
âOkay.â His lips slid up into an anticipatory smile.
âThey want us to go on our honeymoon with them.â
Tremaynne scratched his chin.
âTo some wilderness resort. My dad was the architect. Whitmanâs writing about it. It would all be free.â
âWhat resort?â
âI think itâs called Pine Mountain.â
âPine Mountain Lodge?â He propped himself up on an elbow. âYour dad was the architect for that?â
âYouâve heard of