maybe youâll propose to me? Properly.â When he put his arms around her, she knew she had nothing to worry about.
*
Evie was sorted within the month; a quickie divorce, the upside of marrying abroad. Paul wasnât even sure how legal their union had been all these years.
âWhy didnât you ever tell me?â Grace knew there was much heâd never get around to telling her. She had a feeling he knew what he was doing. There was a time when the mention of marriage, good or bad, would have scared her off. âYouâre a very wise man; have I mentioned that before?â
âNo, but we have a lifetime ahead of us and I suppose itâs the kind of thing Iâll never tire of hearing.â He pulled her close and they made plans for a simple ceremony. He didnât want anything splashed across the celebrity magazines, it wouldnât be fair to Evie. Grace agreed although it set her teeth on edge a little, the idea that Evie Considine might still dictate her future. âDonât be like that, we have so much to look forward to and sheâ¦â Would it always bother her that his sentences never ended when he spoke of Evie, as though there was still unfinished business between them?
*
Malta was perfect. If sheâd been the kind of girl to think about a white dress and the man of her dreams, she couldnât have come up with anything better. Paul booked the best hotel on the island. It was off-season; and the small church, which Grace couldnât be sure was Catholic, was idyllic. âDoes it really matter?â he asked her, and in that moment, it hadnât mattered. Whitewashed stone, aged timbers and soft tones from Debussy filled the air as they exchanged their handwritten vows. She hoped Paul forgot about Evie for the day. Maybe, a small sliver of guilt raised its head after he said, âI do.â Grace wondered if the other woman realized that Paul was no longer hers. Had he felt for her what he now felt for Grace? She quickly cast aside the lingering whispers, drank in the clear blue skies, and lightly scented breeze. He was hers. Everything had subtly changed between them in a way she hadnât imagined it would. Sure, that was just stupid, wasnât it?
*
The weeks seemed to rush past her then. They settled on a house, not too big, but close enough for Paul to get in and out of work easily. It was probably no more than a stoneâs throw from where he lived with Evie, but they both liked the area and Grace never mentioned it. It wasnât a permanent home. âPlenty of time for all that when weâre a family,â he told her, so for now they rented and it felt temporary despite the paintings she hung about the rooms to make them feel like hers. Paul was only interested in one room. In her second trimester, the morning sickness got worse instead of better.
âYou might well be expecting an elephant calf,â Patrick told her drily one morning. He dropped chocolate-covered Kimberley biscuits into his steaming mocha; even the smell of mocha made Grace feel wretched these days.
âIâm certainly big enough.â It was true; she had morphed into one of those enormous pregnant women you saw on seventies American TV series. She was, she knew, living proof that they actually existed.
Then, out of nowhere, it struck her. Had their childlessness been the cause of Paul and Evieâs break-up? He wouldnât be drawn on any details. Nothing. She cast aside the thought quickly. Hormones? Within a few short weeks, Grace Kennedy-Starr had become a stranger to herself.
âItâs easier to mind the little one now,â one of the midwives told her on her final visit to the clinic. As though lumbering about with permanent heartburn could be better than having it all over with. Grace knew she was trying to comfort her, perhaps she knew what it was to feel so overwhelmed by pregnancy. âAny day soon and it will all be worth