The Wordwoodâs socomprehensive now that we couldnât have entered all the information it now holds even if each of us had spent all our time keying it in, twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week. And the really weird thing is, itâs not on the hard drive of our server anymore. Itâs just . . . out there, somewhere.â
I give her a blank look, still not understanding why sheâs not excited about this, why she hasnât trumpeted their accomplishment to the world.
âThe Wordwoodâs everything we hoped it would be and more,â she explains when I ask. âItâs efficient beyond anything we could have hoped for.â
âAnd?â
âAnd weâre afraid of screwing around with it, or talking it up, for fear that itâll go away.â
âIt.â
I suddenly find myself reduced to one-word responses and I donât know why.
âThe program,â Holly says. âThe entity thatâs taken up residence in the Wordwood, whatever it is. Itâs like a piece of magic, our own guardian angel of books and literature. Nobody wants to take the chance of losing itânot now. Itâs become indispensable.â
âHollyââ
âDid you recognize its voice?â she asks. I shake my head.
âSome of the others using the program recognize its speech patterns, the cadence of its language, as belonging to people they once knewâor still know, but rarely see anymore.â
I finally manage a whole sentence. âYou mean itâs mimicking these people?â
âNo. Itâs more like it really is these peopleâor at least it is them when you happen to be talking to it. When Iâm online with the Wordwood, I hear my grandmotherâs voice in the way it responds to me. Sometimes . . .â She hesitates, then goes on. âSometimes itâs like Iâm actually sitting in a forest somewhere with Gran, talking about books.â
I love a good mystery and this has all the makings of the best kind of urban myth.
âHow long has this been going on?â I ask.
âAbout two years.â
Itâs not until much later that I realize this is around the same time Saskia first arrived in Newford.
9
Spirits and ghosts.
My last serious relationship was with a woman who wasnât so much flesh and blood as a spirit borrowing her cloak of humanity. Her name was Tally. Tallulah. The essence of the city, made manifest for the nights we stole from its darker corners, the hours in which we made light between us when everything else lay in shadows. She left because she had to be hard, she had to be tough to survive, the way the city is now. Loving me, she couldnât meet the spite and meanness with like intent. She couldnât survive.
Sheâs out there still. Somewhere. I donât see her, but I can still feel her presence sometimes. On certain nights.
The last time Geordie got serious about a woman, she turned into a ghost.
My therapist would have a heyday with this material, but Iâve never come right out and told her about any of it. I couch the truths I give her with the same thin veneer of plausibility that I slip onto the facts of some of my stories. I know how weird that sounds, considering what I write, but Iâve seen things that are realâthat I know are trueâbut theyâre so outrageous, the only way I can write about them is to start with âOnce upon a time.â Truth masquerading as lies, but then itâs all artifice, isnât it? Language, conversation, stories. All of it. Since Babel fell, words can no longer convey our intent. Not the way that music can.
And the music I hear now . . .
I canât get enough of it. Long, slow chords that resonate deep in my chest for hours after Saskia and I have been together, tempered only by the fear that sheâs too deeply cloaked in mystery and that, like Tally, that mystery will one day take her away.
I donât mean