obviously you donât feel good about me applying for it. Am I wasting my time?â
Bridget looked surprised, as if I had just come out of left field with that. She wouldnât look me in the eye.
âIs it Asha? You promised her something and now you donât want to deliver?â
Bridget ran her hands through her hair, still avoiding my eyes.
âYou might want this job, I know you need it, but once you get out there, itâs different. Iâm always looking for employees. Itâs a fucking strain. The lawyers, God, I talk to so many lawyers.â
âThatâs big of you, trying to spare me some grief.â
Finally, our eyes met. She looked like a woman whoâd had enough.
âIâve got my share of problems. Iâll admit that. Youâre right. Asha really wants this for you.â
âYou donât think Iâm capable?â
She shook her head.
âItâs not that at all. I donât want to have to answer to Asha when itâs over.â
âWhat do you mean âwhen itâs overâ? What do you have to answer for?â
âI might be a little jealous about how much she likes you, but itâs not all jealousy. I just donât want her blaming me when everything goes to hell.â
I stood up to leave. I was through with this shit.
âI finished that diversion program with no problems. You know that.â
âOh, this isnât about you. Itâs about Monster, and itâs about why I want to quit this job. I donât want to be responsible for the shit that happens.â
âQuit this job? I donât get you at all! You bring me in, then decide Iâm not right for the position, and then you tell me youâre gonna quit.â
âDonât get so pissed off. If I get the call that he wants to offer you the job, Iâm not going to disagree. Iâm not that kind of bitch. Iâm just being up front. You need to know what youâre getting into.â
âWhat are you talking about? What am I getting into?â
âYouâll see. Youâll have to see how this place works. Youâll know soon enough if youâve got the stomach for it.â
The phone rang and she snatched it up with a crisp âBridget here.â
I walked outside before hearing the verdict: Would I live or die? Was I hired, or was I flying back to the halfway house to finish probation? At that moment I just wanted to feel the sun on my skin, whatever the hell happened.
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GRILLED CHEESE SANDWICHES WITH ROASTED SWEET POTATO
SERVES 4
   2 sweet potatoes
   Extra-virgin olive oil (EVOO), as needed for brushing
   Salt and freshly ground black pepper
   4 tablespoons unsalted butter
   3 cipolline onions, peeled and julienned
   3 teaspoons brown sugar
   2 tablespoons balsamic vinegar
   ¼ pound Brie, chilled
   ¼ pound fontina
   8 slices potato bread
   Whole-grain mustard
Peel the sweet potatoes, slice into 2-inch rounds, brush with EVOO, and sprinkle with salt and pepper. Bake in a 375°F oven until fork-tender, about 15 minutes. Set aside.
Heat 2 tablespoons butter in a 12-inch heavy nonstick skillet over moderately high heat. When the butter is foamy, add the onions, salt, ½ teaspoon black pepper, sugar, and vinegar and cook until the onions are caramelized, about 8 minutes. Set aside and let cool to room temperature.
Remove and discard the cheese rinds. Mix the cheeses and divide the mixture among 4 slices of the potato bread, using about ¼ cup per slice. Layer the sweet potato rounds on top of the cheese. Spread the remaining 4 slices of bread with the mustard and the onion mixture and place (mustard side down) on top of each sandwich.
Heat 1 tablespoon butter in a clean skillet over moderate heat until it starts to foam. Then cook 2 sandwiches, without turning them over,
Jillian Hart, Janet Tronstad