brutal,â she found herself saying instead of asking for what she wanted, the reason sheâd fought the vicious truths of the past and tracked him down. She needed him to understand, to forgive her betrayal.
âYou were my one point of safety, the one person I trusted to never lose himself in anger and hurt me,â she persisted in the face of his silence. âYet you ended up being more violent than anyone else. How could I help but wonder if the violence wouldnât be directed at me one day, huh, Clay?â
His growl raised every hair on her body.
CHAPTER 3
Run! her mind screamed.
Talin didnât run. She was through with running. But her heart was a drumbeat in her throat.
âYou always knew what I was,â Clay said, tone full of a bone-deep fury. âYou chose not to think about it, chose to pretend I was what you wanted me to be.â
âNo.â She refused to back down. âYou were different before.â Before heâd discovered what Orrin had done. Before heâd killed to keep her safe. âYou wereââ
âYouâre making up fairy tales.â The harshest of rejoinders. âThe only thing different about me was that I treated you like a kid. Youâre not a kid anymore.â
And he wasnât going to sheathe his claws, she thought. âI donât care what you say. Weâre still friends.â
âNo, weâre not. Not when youâre quaking in your boots at the sight of me. My friends donât look at me and see a monster.â
She couldnât say anything to that. She did fear him, maybe more than she feared anyone else on this planet. Clay had almost destroyed her once, was the sole person who could do that even now. âIâm sorry.â Sorry that her weakness had made him a murderer, sorry that she wasnât strong enough to get past what sheâd seen in that blood-soaked room. Sorry that sheâd come here.
No .
She wasnât sorry about finding him. âI missed you.â Every single day without him, she had missed him. Now, he was a shadow in the darkness. All she could see clearly were those cat eyes of his. Then she sensed him move and realized heâd crossed his arms. Closing her out.
âThis isnât going to work,â she whispered, conscious of something very fragile breaking inside of her. âItâs my fault, I know.â If she had come to him at eighteen, he might have been angry at what sheâd done, but he would have forgiven her, would have understood her need to grow strong enough to deal with him. But she had waited too long and now he wasnât hers anymore. âI should go back.â
âTell me what you want, then Iâll decide.â The roughness of his voice stroked over her in a disturbingly intimate caress.
She shivered. âDonât give me orders.â It was out before she could censor herself. As a child, she had learned to keep her opinions to herself. It was far safer. But half an hour with Clayâa Clay who was almost all strangerâand she was already falling into the old patterns between them. He was the one person whoâd gotten mad if she had kept her mouth shut, rather than the other way around. Maybe, she thought, a bright spark of hope igniting, maybe he hadnât changed in that way. âIâm not a dog to be brought to heel.â
A small silence, followed by the sound of clothes shifting over skin. âStill got a smart mouth on you.â
The tightness in her chest eased. If Clay had told her to shut upâ¦âCan I ask you some questions?â
âAuditioning me for your job? Sorry, Talin, I hold the power here.â
The emotional taunt hurt more than any physical blow. They had always been equalsâfriends. âI want to know you again.â
âAll you need to know is that Iâm even more deadly than I used to be.â He moved far enough out of the shadows that she could
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