over stiles, ride across broken ground; it would be quicker to walk. I move the leaves away with a stick. Itâs a childâs bike and the story becomes obvious: nicked from a smaller kid and dumped when it wasnât funny anymore. I wonder if I could get it out of there and I stretch out further with the stick, but I canât quite reach it.
âWhat are you doing?â
Words from behind me. I almost lose my balance and plunge into the water, but manage to drop the stick and flap my arms until I can stand up straight. I turn round and itâs Laura, Geoffâs wife, with her ash-blonde hair whipping in the wind.
âUhâ¦thereâs a bike in the water.â
âItâs been there for ages.â
âOh. Really?â
âI see it every time I come down here. God knows what else is in there. Itâs kids, isnât it?â She shrugs and looks at me with her head cocked to one side. I notice that sheâs properly dressed â stout shoes, fleece jacket â and quite clearly came out for the specific purpose of âtaking a walkâ.
âIs Geoff with you?â
âItâs Saturday morning. Heâs on the sofa watching cartoons and nursing his hangover.â
âOh. OK. Youâre just having a walk?â
âYep.â
âYour usual route?â
âWell, itâs the closest thing to a beauty spot there is around here. Are you going to interrogate me all morning?â
âNo, sorry. Just surprised to see anyone, thatâs all.â In the distance I hear the faint crack of an air rifle â probably someone after rabbits. âSounds like weâre not the only ones, though.â
She starts to walk along the path and passes me â closely â as if she expects me to fall into step beside her. Without thinking I do just that and we amble alongside the edge of the pond. Itâs not a big body of water, but itâs big enough to take a few minutes to get round, and sheâs walking slowly.
âWhatâs your excuse, anyway?â
âWhat?â
âFor being out here. Geoff says you donât do anything except read and go to the pub.â
âYeah, well.â I look over the water for a few moments. âI just felt like being outside for a while. I used to come here when I was little.â
Another long pause, during which she stops and sits on a stump. She looks up at me, actually fixes me with her gaze. âWere you reminiscing?â
âI try not to.â
She laughs and her smile is wide and bright. âWe donât see much of you.â
âI donât think Geoff considers me house-trained.â
She shifts over and gestures me towards her. âSit down.â The stump is big enough for two and I am careful to leave space between us, but then she reaches out and touches my arm. âIt would have been easier for you just to tell him, in the long run I mean.â
âIt wasnât the right thing to do.â
âBut you didnât know that then. You didnât really know me.â
âI could just tell.â
âThank you, anyway.â
âYou donât need to thank me. You donât owe me anything.â
I look into her face. I always thought her eyes were green, but now I can see that they contain flecks of brown. A gust of wind and a few of the last leaves give up and are carried away.
âIâll leave you to it, then,â she says.
âYeah.â
Suddenly, she leans over and kisses me on the forehead â just above my eye, right on my scar â rough and tender at the same time. Then she gets up and walks away, quickly, without another word. Soon she disappears beneath the trees. I feel a vague breath of regret under my sternum; I wonder what it would be like to have someone I could talk to about anything I wanted. Laura is the worst possible choice, though, and anyway, thatâs all bollocks: a problem shared is a problem
Kira Wilson, Jonathan Wilson