her eyesââ He looked at Lucyâs face, then tilted up her chin so she had to meet his gaze. âShe has blue eyes, Lucy, that when I tried real hard reminded me of you.â
Lucy shook under his intense regard. âSo,â she whispered, âthe double Ds had nothing to do with it, huh?â
Bram took a step away from her. If he hadnât, heâd have kissed her again, and with the bed right behind her, things might have gotten out of hand. She was already prepared to bolt, so pushing her wasnât a good idea. âLet me be clear about something here, Lucy. When I get alone in my bed at night and decide I canât take it anymore, itâs not Dedeâs body I think about.â He stared at her hard, saw the way her pupils dilated, and admitted gruffly, âItâs yours.â
Lucy looked frozen and enthralled. âGood God. Youâre not telling me that you . . . ?â
âYeah, so what?â Bram figured he was far too old to be embarrassed over his body and the things he felt, the needs he dealt with. âWeâve already established that Iâm not a monk. And at the moment, no other woman is appealing to me. I want
you
, Lucy. Iâve been wanting you since before David died.â He didnât have to tell her yet that heâd always wanted her. That might be a bit too much.
For the first time since heâd arrived, she appeared to be softening. Wryly Bram wondered if she felt sorry for him because heâd admitted to flying solo. The amusing thought brought with it another, and his pulse raced.
Softly he asked, âWhat about you?â
Wariness returned to her gaze. âWhat about me?â
âItâs been a long time since you filed for divorce. You havenât dated one single time since then.â It sometimes made Bram break out in a sweat thinking about a woman like Lucy, a woman so alive and so filled with love, going to her bed all alone every night.
âDonât you get lonely, Lucy? Doesnât your body burn sometimes, wanting the touch of a man? Wanting relief? To the point where you just canât take it anymore?â
In a tone that matched his own, she whispered, âThatâs why Iâm here.â She looked away from him, then back again. âWhat you said, being alone . . . thatâs not the same as being with someone.â
His heart thundered. âNo, itâs not. Itâs a damn poor substitute.â
âThings . . . things were bad between David and me for a while before he cheated. But even then, even when I knew I was losing him, it was nice to have a man close sometimes, a warm body in the bed with me at night.â She swallowed and in an attempt to explain, she said, âThereâs a certain type of comfort in just knowing youâre not alone, in feeling the body heat, hearing someone else breathe.â
Bramâs lungs constricted with fresh pain. Through the years of her marriage, it had been a unique form of hell knowing that David made love to her and Bram would never be allowed to. Now he had a chance and heâd be damned forever before he lost it.
He caught her chin on the edge of his fist. âI want to be the man who touches you now.â
She immediately shook her head. âBram, I canât compare with all those young, beautiful women you date.â
âChrist.â How could she not know, not understand? David had been a bigger ass than heâd suspected. âYou donât have to compare with anyone. Youâre in an entirely different league.â
âThe minor league?â she teased, but Bram saw her uncertainty, the misconceptions she had about herself as a woman.
Desperately he tangled his fingers in her hair and drew her up against his chest. âI want you for who you are, Lucy. Iâve always respected your intelligence and your loyalty. I adore your sense of humor and your sense of
Elizabeth Amelia Barrington