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different.”
    “ I was going for
fantastic, great, or stunning, not different,” I joked.
    “ Sorry, you do look great. I’m just
not used to seeing you so … dressed up.”
    I felt a bit overdressed compared to
her bootleg jeans and white button-up top. She always dressed
conservatively, so I hadn’t expected her to go all Rock Chick for
the concert. Her shoulder length dead straight brown hair was in
her usual tight bun, and she had her staple lip gloss
on.
    “ Are you nervous?” she
asked.
    “ Yes, I’ve never been more
nervous. I couldn’t even eat dinner because I have that sick
feeling in my stomach.”
    “ It’ll pass as soon as the
concert starts.”
    We arrived at the concert venue, and
there were thousands of girls waiting. “Oh great, about half of the
girls here are wearing green, so there goes my plan to stand
out.”
    “ Look at that girl over
there with the word “CARSON” tattooed on her arm.” Liz pointed to a
girl who was probably 18. She several tattoos and piercings, and on
her arm was a Carson tattoo.
    “ Some people are
fanatical. I hope it was a stick on.”
    “ Doubt it, judging by her
obvious love of the tattoo parlor.”
    “ What’s she going to do
when she’s 30 and she doesn’t like Carson anymore?”
    “ She can always get
something inked over the ‘O’ and the ‘N’ and then it will say
‘CARS.’”
    “ Good idea,” I
giggled.
    Two of the girls in the row behind us
had sleeping bags with them. We asked them why they had them, and
they said that it was because they had camped out all night in
front of the venue to get last minute tickets. Maybe there really
were some girls out there with the same feelings about one of the
band members as me.
    Everyone was talking and laughing
really loudly, so Liz and I had to shout at each other to be
heard.
    “ This is so exciting,”
Lisa said rubbing my arm.
    “ Yes, but I feel like I
might throw up.” My stomach was doing summersaults.
    “ Well if you do, please
aim away from,” she said laughing. I didn’t know how she could
joke, when I was more nervous than I’d ever been in my life. It
felt worse than any speech I’d ever given.
    All I could see was a sea of Carson
banners and posters. “I should have made a banner, or brought one
of my posters.”
    “ No, that’s a bit
desperate. You want to look cool, not fanatical.”
    “ You’re right.”
    The atmosphere was electric. We were
lucky because our tickets were for the fourth row from the front,
so we were very close to the stage. Again, Liz had the best
parents. The concert started. The lights dimmed and there were
deafening screams.
    “ Here we go,” Liz
squealed. I hadn’t expected her to get so worked up, she was
usually so calm. I guess teen idols make even serious girls go
gaga.
    I couldn’t remember a time when I had
ever been so excited, nervous, and happy at the same time. It felt
like a rollercoaster ride of emotions.
    When the lights came back on, Carson
was ready on stage standing by their instruments. The first song
they played was “Say You’re Mine,” an up tempo pop/rock song. Chase
was right at the front of the stage playing his keyboard and
singing. He was so close that I could see his face clearly. He
looked even better in real life. He smiled a lot and his teeth
seemed to sparkle, like a cartoon character, but in a good way. He
looked absolutely gorgeous.
    I couldn’t believe that he was really
there in front of me, and that it wasn’t a dream. It’s funny how
when dream or imagine how you will feel when you experience
something, it’s never the same when you actually do experience it.
I’d thought about how I would feel thousands of times, but I could
never predict the way I actually felt. When I saw him in the flesh,
it felt a million times better, more real, more exciting than how I
had imagined it. But it also didn’t feel real, because I couldn’t
believe that it was actually happening.
    Liz screamed like the other girls,