picture-perfect Nicholas Sparks fanatic. She wants the knight in shining armor, the big grand gesture of love, a heartfelt, real life love story. All things I can’t give to her.
I can’t give her any of those things. I’m the exact opposite of Tegan. I’m a bit older than her, and I’ve experienced things in my life that have shaped me into the realist I am. While most kids were coddled and sheltered by their parents, I grew up in the uncaring world of multiple foster homes and a random ward in the state of Michigan.
Because of my early upbringing, I know that commitments don’t mean anything. I love you are just words that are carelessly tossed around, and the only person you can rely on is yourself. These were the lessons I learned at a young age. My resilience is my strongest attribute; without it I wouldn’t have bettered myself from that lonely, unloved child into the guy I am today.
I was never loved until my parents adopted me. Their marriage is one of the very few positive examples of love I’ve experienced, and I know that kind of love is hard to come by. My birth mother did a number on me, though. Even at my age now, I’m still unable to let my heart go unguarded.
What I can give her is an unlimited supply of orgasms and loads of sexual experience, but that is all I can give her.
I hate that I can’t be the man she deserves. Guilt begins to eat away at my mind as I think of how I’m actually a shithead of a guy for not leaving her alone to find that type of man. What if this Matthew guy is the perfect man for Tegan? And my arrogance and selfish behavior tonight could have put a strain on their relationship?
As much as I don’t want to, I know the best thing I can do is leave Tegan alone, wish her well, and try to be a friend. While that kiss tonight was nothing short of amazing, it can’t happen again.
Reed
Tuesday afternoon during work, I get a text from Hunter asking me to come by their house, claiming he needs some help with a project.
The man just got back from his honeymoon, you’d think he’d want to enjoy some more time with his wife before he goes back to work, but no, he wants to do projects around the house.
I'm somewhat surprised when I pull up to their house and see Tegan’s car parked out front. Guess I shouldn't be, though—Tessa and she are thick as thieves. Of course she’d be here the minute Tess returned from her honeymoon.
Hopefully, whatever Hunter has in store for me is outside and away from Tegan. The last thing I want to see is sympathy in her eyes from her rejection on Friday night.
Walking in, I call out “Hello” and get no response. I open the swinging door to the kitchen and my eyes slowly take in the scene in front of me.
Tessa looks toward me with an expression that can only be described as livid, Hunter’s hair is sticking up in all directions, obviously from him running his hand through it—a nervous habit of his we all caught onto rather quickly after meeting him. As if on cue, his hand makes another dart through it. My eyes continue their course around the table, falling on Tegan. She is sitting in a submissive form, eyes cast down, hands in her lap; she looks like a child who’s in the process of being scolded.
Before anyone says a word to me, I already know what this is about. Tegan must have told them about us screwing around months ago.
I knew she was still pissy over me breaking it off, but I never expected her to tell anyone about it. Especially not after sitting on it for this long.
The best way to handle this is by playing it cool. After all this is her family , I can’t very well act like the victim.
“Take a seat, man.” Hunter’s words break into my thoughts.
The only available seat at the table is across from Tegan, who still hasn’t acknowledged me. I place a kiss to Tessa’s cheek as I pass by her, although by the disgusted look on her face, I can’t help but feel like she would’ve preferred if I