delighted to see you when they visited Dublin,
they can’t stop talking about you and Katie, we’re all so proud of you.
Happy 21st! Sorry I couldn’t make it home to celebrate with you, but
things have been crazy at college. Because it’s my final year here there’s just
been so much work to do. I’m dreading the final exams. If I fail I don’t no
what I’ll do. Sally was asking after you, I no you’ve never met but she feels
like she nos you from me talking about our old times so much.
From Alex
To Alex
Katie’s teething is really bad lately
Katie is starting playschool soon
Katie said grandma today
It was dad’s 50th last weekend so we splashed out and went out for din-
ner to the Hazel restaurant where I believe you went with slutty Bethany and
her rich parents all those years ago for your 17th. It was good to be able to
let my hair down and relax without Katie. I hired a babysitter, so that was
my treat for the weekend.
Rosie
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Rosie
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Cecelia Ahern
Ah come on Rosie! You’re letting the side down! You better have some-
thing to tell me about next time!
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Rosie
Alex
3-year-old child
In case you didn’t know, I have a 3-year-old child which makes it rather
difficult for me to go out and drink myself silly, otherwise I wake up with an
awful headache and a screaming child who needs me to look after her and
NOT to be sticking my head down the toilet.
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Alex
Rosie
Sorry
Rosie, I’m sorry I didn’t mean to come across as being insensitive. I just
meant that you should remember that you need to enjoy life too. Look after
yourself and not just Katie. Sorry if I hurt you.
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Rosie
Stephanie
A moment to whinge
Oh Stephanie, sometimes I just feel like the walls are closing in on me.
I’m only 23 and I feel like I’m 43. I love Katie. I’m glad I made the decision I
made, but I’m tired.
So bloody tired. All of the time.
And that’s how I feel with Mum and Dad helping me. I don’t know how
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I’m going to cope on my own. And I’m going to have to do that—I can’t live
with Mum and Dad forever. Although I really want to.
I wouldn’t want Katie depending on me so much when she’s older. Of
course I want her to know that I’m here for her always and that my love is
absolutely unconditional, but she needs to be independent.
I need to be independent. I think it’s time for me to grow up now Steph.
I’ve been putting it off, running away from it for so long. Katie will be start-
ing school soon. Imagine! My baby starting school. It’s all happening so
quickly. Katie will be meeting new people and beginning her life and I have
left mine behind. I need to pick myself up and stop feeling so sorry for
myself. Life is hard, so what?
It’s hard for everyone isn’t it? Anyone who says it’s easy is a liar. There’s
this huge divide between me and Alex right now because I feel like we’re liv-
ing in such different worlds, I don’t know what to talk about with him any-
more. And we used to be able to talk all night. He phones once a week and I
listen to what he’s been up to during the week and try to bite my tongue
every time I go into another Katie story. Truth is I have nothing other to talk
about but her and I know it bores people. I think I used to be interesting
once upon a time.
Anyway I’ve decided I’m going to visit Boston finally. I’m going to finally
face up to what my life could have been like had Alex gotten on that plane
and made it to the debs with me instead of . . . well you know who. I could
have a degree now. I could have been a career woman. I know it seems silly
to put all that’s happened down to the fact that Alex couldn’t make it to the
debs but if he had come then I wouldn’t have gone with Brian. I wouldn’t
have slept