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Shawn waited until he looked up. “Finally I knew I had to stop running and come back to you.”
    Kyle bit his lip, his face full of hurt, and Shawn wanted to kick himself. This obviously wasn’t a good idea. Why he’d ever thought telling Kyle the truth would win him his man back he didn’t know. He’d just managed to cause his mate more pain.
    They sat in strained silence for several minutes before Kyle asked softly, “Why don’t… didn’t you want me?”
    “Oh, God!” Shawn jumped from his seat and rushed over to Kyle’s side of the booth and slid in next to the other man. “I wanted you…want you, I mean. That was never an issue,” he assured Kyle.
    “But…”
    Shawn wrapped his arm around Kyle’s shoulders and pulled their two bodies close together. “I was scared,” he whispered.
    Kyle’s mouth opened and closed several times before he simply nodded.
    “I know you always wanted your mate. Hell, I don’t know anyone else besides me that actually didn’t actively search. But all I could think was, when I found my mate, I would no longer be just Shawn. I would be part of a mated pair or trio. I would be responsible for others when I wasn’t even ready to take care of myself. That someone would depend on me and I wouldn’t be able to provide for them…for you.”
    Kyle’s response surprised him. His mate sighed and rested his head against his arm. “I understand.”
    “You don’t have to say that. I know I’m a selfish bastard,” Shawn told him hoping to lighten the mood a little. Although it was the truth.
    Kyle chuckled and Shawn felt his tension lessen.
    “Hell man, we’re all selfish,” Kyle tried to assure him.
    “Not you,” Shawn cupped Kyle’s cheek. “You’re the most honest, good, kind man I’ve ever met.”
    Kyle blushed but Shawn meant what he said and was intent on proving it. Gently he nudged the other man’s lips to his.
    The kiss was sweet and loving and they only broke away when the waitress arrived with their food, discreetly clearing her throat.
    As they ate, Shawn struggled with whether to tell the man about Bree or not. Should he wait and make sure Kyle believed he was sincere?
    His stomach flipped and he lost his appetite. As if sensing his change in mood, Kyle looked over at him.
    “You okay?” his mate asked.
    Shawn wiped his mouth before he took a deep breath. He made sure Kyle met and held his gaze. He opened his mouth and paused. He couldn’t do it. Not yet.
    Kyle stiffened. Shawn placed his hand on the other man’s knee.
    “It’s nothing,” Shawn tried to explain. “I just can’t believe you’re here next to me. I don’t deserve you.”
    Kyle watched him for several moments. “I can tell you mean that, but you’re still holding something back. Will it keep you from me?” Kyle asked softly.
    Shawn squeezed Kyle’s leg. “Nothing in this world will ever keep me from you again.”
    “All right then. Eat.”
    Relieved, Shawn did as he was told.
      

Chapter Five
     
     
     
    Kyle was going to kill his mate. It had been over a week since the two of them had shared dinner and one awesome blowjob in his office.
    Since then Shawn had remained the perfect gentleman. The two men shared dinner every night but at the end of the evening, Shawn would take Kyle back to his apartment, kiss him good night, and leave him alone.
    It was driving Kyle crazy.
    Shawn had told him that he wanted to make up for all the pain he had caused but now Kyle had a different kind of pain. One that even the feel of his own hand was not able to take care of.
    He wanted Shawn and tonight he was going to get him one way or another. Shawn was supposed to pick him up at seven. Just a few minutes from now.
    Kyle had put his plan into motion as soon as he got off work. Now everything was in place.
    When the knock came on the door, he had to take several deep breaths. He hoped he wasn’t making a terrible mistake.
    He opened the door to his mate as he grinned at the surprised,