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wrong, but I’m stupid and didn’t. Don’t worry about Melinda anymore because I can’t hang around with her. I can only hang around with you. My dad thinks you are the greatest thing that happened to me, so please forgive the way I acted around you.
    Love,    
Amanda
Shanda,
Hi Honey. Well listen, Melinda don’t want nothing to do with me so I don’t want nothing to do with her. I guess I’m all yours. You can do what you want with me. Is there anything you expect out of me? What I expect out of you is to be nice and don’t lie or flirt with anyone besides me.
    Love ya,       
Amanda Poo
Shanda,
God, I’m really starting to hate Melinda. I never thought I would but it’s happening. I don’t care anymore and if she even talks to me I will tell her to F—off because I’m so pissed off at her. Shanda. Listen, OK. I’m all yours, OK.
    The letters sound convincing, but Amanda was actually playing it both ways. She wouldn’t admit it to Shanda, but Amanda was extremely jealous of Carrie East’s relationship with Melinda. She learned Carrie’s phone number and began a series of harassing phone calls, telling Carrie to stay away from Melinda. Carrie, who at eighteen was bigger and stronger than Amanda, was hardly scared. And anyway, Carrie, who was not a particularly attractive young woman, considered Melinda quite a catch for her, so she was not about to give her up.
    But Melinda had eyes only for Amanda. When Melinda saw that Amanda was jealous, she told her that her affair with Carrie was just a fling and that it was Amanda whom she truly loved. Melinda pleaded with Amanda to break off her relationship with Shanda, and Amanda agreed to do so.
    But once again it was a lie. Instead, Amanda sent Shanda these two notes:
Shanda,
Hey honey. Yes, I do love you but I just feel like Melinda has me in a trance and I don’t know how to get out of it and I’m scared. If I try to get out something bad will happen and I’m scared to death.
    Love,    
Amanda
Shanda, I don’t think I would ever tell Melinda that we’re going out. She would probably kill you. Yes, I love you a lot, Shanda my honey.
    Love ya,
Amanda
    While Amanda was trying to sort out her feelings about Melinda, she was confronted with another problem. Shanda had begun to make new friends, and several of them were boys. Suddenly Shanda wasn’t returning her phone calls or responding to her notes. Instead of meeting Amanda between classes, Shanda was devoting her time to two male suitors, Ray and Mike. Feeling scorned, Amanda used veiled threats and sweet talk to woo Shanda back. In mid-October, she sent the following notes:
Shanda,
Melinda said she saw you flirting with some boys. And you better stop calling Ray when you like me. How do I know you don’t like him if you aren’t calling me? I’m scared of losing you.
    Love ya,
    Amanda
Shanda,
Hey, what’s wrong with you? You were acting all stuck up when you were walking with Shawna. You just looked at me and kept walking. What’s your problem? Can you look me in the eye and tell me them rumors about you and Ray are not true? I know it’s true so just tell me.
Shanda,
I thought you never liked Mike. Yesterday you said you didn’t like him anymore. So that means you did like him at one time. Tell me the truth. I can have people who can find out.
Shanda,
I talked to someone that saw you standing real close to a blond headed boy. So who was that boy? Don’t lie.
    Since Shanda was occupied with her new friends, Amanda began spending more time with Melinda and other friends. When Amanda was caught cutting school one day, Amanda’s father called Jacque at her job. Jerry Heavrin wasunsure who’d skipped school with Amanda, and he warned Jacque that Shanda might have been with her. Jacque immediately called the school but was told that Shanda had been in class all day. That night Shanda admitted to her mother that Amanda and some other girls had tried persuading her to cut school with