their way artistically down them, shoulders strong enough to carry a ten-point buck with ease, and sculpted abs, gave me something other than the cold to focus on.
I longed to count the defined muscles beneath all that sun-kissed skin. His dark nipples looked like bits of coffee with a dash of cream. How would they taste? Would his skin be salty or sweet? The cold that made me shake, made me sluggish enough to keep from reaching out for a lick of those mocha buds.
“What do you mean the storm isn’t natural? We’re in the middle of nowhere in northern Minnesota. Storms happen all the time. Bad ones.” Jamie’s voice rumbled from his chest where I rested my face. I couldn’t make out his tone because his body heat made me sleepy. “I don’t feel any magic in it.”
“Not natural,” I repeated. Magic or not, something out of the ordinary was happening, even if Minnesota was known for getting awful storms out of nowhere.
“How?”
“Lots of pressure letting go, but no build up.”
“Like an earthquake?”
“Feels like a living thing.”
“All magic is a living thing. All elements are as well. Is this different than a bad rainstorm?” Jamie seemed to be searching my face for something.
I shrugged, glad the feeling began to return to my limbs. I wondered if I had frostbite. But the feeling of the fury outside still beat at me hard enough that I clung to Jamie, not caring if all my fingers or toes fell off. The water in the air almost seemed to call for help as it was frozen and tossed about fiercely. “Talk to me, please.”
Jamie sat silently for a few seconds before saying, “I’m not much of a talker. That’s more Gabe’s thing. Maybe you should talk. Tell me why I find Sei in your bed most mornings now?”
I sighed. “I’m having nightmares, that’s all.”
“From when Sei was kidnapped?”
“Yeah. He wakes me up, curls up with me, and I sleep better. It’s no big deal.”
“You were in love with him once.”
“Nah. It was a crush. I get that now. It was a fantasy. I dreamt of taking care of him before I even knew him. But I could never be what he needs.”
Jamie shifted my weight in his lap and pulled the blanket tighter around us. “You’re a nice guy. Happy, smart, with the exception of running out into a snowstorm, and solid, you’re not bouncing from relationship to relationship, job to job. Sei needs those things in his life, even if it’s not in an intimate way.”
“I wish I’d approached him years ago. Maybe it would have stopped all the stuff from happening. Maybe Sei would be better on the path to healing. I shouldn’t have followed the crowd and kept my distance. He just seemed so different.” I settled deeper into Jamie’s embrace, enjoying his heat and feeling my body light up in a somewhat embarrassing way. “I want people to stop trying to hurt him. He needs a chance at a normal life.”
“I agree.”
“Hmm.” I looked up at him. His blond hair tickled my bare shoulders. “Does it ever bug you to see Sei and Gabe together?”
“No. Gabe treats Seiran like he’s the most important person in the world and at the same time doesn’t let him get away with anything. I can’t think of anyone who’d have a better handle on Sei than Gabe.”
For a guy who was so messed up in his perception of the world, Seiran sure had a lot of great things going for him. I had a handful of siblings, and while my mom wasn’t upfront and angry about me being gay, most of my siblings were. Jamie obviously had no problem with it. “You’re a great big brother.”
He laughed hard enough that we both shook. “Sei calls me a stalker. Says I’m creepy ’cause I pay too close attention to him. He hates when I dote on him.”
“His view of the world is a little skewed.”
“Yeah. We’re working on that.” He got up, lifting me like I weighed nothing, and carried us to his bed, which was closer, before burying us both beneath a mound of blankets.
“And this bed’s just right!” I