deep breath. mama deep breath. big daddy deep breath*
zoegirl:
um ⦠is this some new kind of therapy?
SnowAngel:
yes, i learned it from aunt sadie, who got it from 1 of her friends who teaches pre-school.
zoegirl:
and did it work? do you maybe want to tell me that you love me too?
SnowAngel:
of COURSE i do. and iâm sorry for freaking. i am.
SnowAngel:
*blinks humbly at friend* are we still on for tomorrow?
zoegirl:
we better be!
Thu, Feb 9, 10:20 PM E . S . T .
SnowAngel:
hey mads. zoe denied it all, but i called mary kate and sheâs SURE thatâs what she heard.
SnowAngel:
u donât think zoeâs lying, do u?
mad maddie:
iâve never known zoe to be a liar
SnowAngel:
yeah-huh. she lied to her mom when she said sheâd apply to princeton early decision, when she never planned to actually do it.
mad maddie:
that was zoe being passive-aggressive, not outright lying. and she DID get her application in eventually.
SnowAngel:
well, maybe itâs the same thing here. maybe she said something about me in a passive-aggressive sort of way, and it got twisted around.
SnowAngel:
but in that case why wouldnât she admit it?
mad maddie:
beats me
SnowAngel:
and if she DIDNâT say it, who did? i called kristin, and she swears it wasnât her. but who would have made something like that up?
mad maddie:
chill, angela
mad maddie:
if zoe says she didnât say it, she didnât say it.
SnowAngel:
but it bugs me! wouldnât it bug you if someone was saying un-true things about YOU?
mad maddie:
itâs probably some dumb misunderstanding, but iâll keep my ears open tomorrow. if i hear anything iâll tell you!
Fri, Feb 10, 4:33 PM E . S . T .
mad maddie:
hey, zo. u guys doinâ the deed at PP?
zoegirl:
weâre here right now. eek!
zoegirl:
sad posters on walls. sad people in chairs. waiting my turn.
mad maddie:
text when u get back
zoegirl:
will do. thx for checking in!
Fri, Feb 10, 4:40 PM E . S . T .
SnowAngel:
hey, zo! pretend iâm whispering, k?
zoegirl:
whisper-texting?
SnowAngel:
yeah, to be polite.
SnowAngel:
but check out the girl wearing the âNOâ shirt. is that a baby bump or is she just chubby?
zoegirl:
tough call. baby bump?
SnowAngel:
thatâs my guess. think thatâs why she wears the âNOâ shirt now?
zoegirl:
she looks 14. sheesh.
SnowAngel:
no no no to unprotected sex! and to cat-eye eyeliner.just sayinâ.
zoegirl:
thatâs why weâre here. and have you ever seen me do cat-eye eyeliner?
SnowAngel:
maybe she thinks it makes her look older? THIS IS BAD DECISION CITY!
Fri, Feb 10, 6:10 PM E . S . T .
zoegirl:
well ⦠i did it!
mad maddie:
you are with pill?
zoegirl:
i am with pill. is that weird or what?
mad maddie:
what was it like? i want deets!
zoegirl:
it was *crazy*. the woman i talked to was nice, i guess, but she was very ⦠straightforward.
mad maddie:
like how?
zoegirl:
she had a plastic model of a vulva, for one thing. it sat on her desk like a flower arrangement.
mad maddie:
ye gads
zoegirl:
but it was more just the way she talked about everything. like she asked me what kind of âsex playâ iâd engaged in, and she went through this checklist, bam bam bam, as if we were making a grocery list. AND she made angela stay outside in the waiting room, so i was all by myself!
mad maddie:
what kind of sex play HAVE you engaged in?
zoegirl:
really?!
zoegirl:
and she asked me if i smokedâas if!
zoegirl:
she told me that doug and i should use condoms even if i did go on the pill, and that we should *talk* about everything before we actually *do* anything. hereâs her rule: âthe topic should come up and the condom should come out before your zipper goes down.â
mad maddie:
thatâs classic
mad maddie:
you should have a plaque with that needlepointed onto it. you could hang it above your bed.
zoegirl:
honestly, she made me want to swear off sex forever. it all sounds so complicated!
mad