them.â
âI donât want anything of yours.â
âAh, but you already have it.â
âWhat?â
âYou have my heart and my undying desire, my lady pirate.â
I tossed the coins at him and followed with the sword. He ducked, but I think the blade nicked his face. I didnât look at him. I backed out of the door and slammed it in his handsome face. Horrified, I wanted to go back to him and see how much damage I had done with the sword blade. I didnât.
I walked barefoot home and cried for the most of the way. My feet hurt on the rough stones and my legs ached between them. I was ashamed, disgusted, and terribly sad. Oh, God, what if Iâd taken out his eye? I couldnât remember crying since I was a child.
When I slipped through Rogerâs window, he was waiting for me with a grim face. I just knew that my mother had died. I didnât think I could cry over Madeline, my mother. I had believed that her death would come as a relief. She had suffered too long. But I did cry. I cried until my ribs ached, and all I could manage were dry gasps that hurt my throat. There seemed to be no more tears. She was so still and so thin, so unlike the laughing dark eyed woman of her youth.
There was something in her hand. I had to pry her fingers apart to get it. It was a medallion on a leather string. I looked at it carefully. It depicted a moon with a manâs face. A grinning face. I donât know where it had come from. I showed it to Roger, and he told me it had been my fatherâs. I covered my motherâs face with the blanket and walked back to Rogerâs rooms with him. I was thinking about Armand, wondering if that blade had cut his eye. If I was honest with myself, part of my sadness was over the prospect of never seeing him again. I wondered if I would carry that picture I had of him forever in my mindâs eye. Of his handsome face lowering to kiss me.
âWe havenât got the funds for a burial. Iâll take a rowboat out and put her into the sea,â Roger spoke as in a dream. âShe said it would be alright, though she never liked the sea much herself. She doesnât deserve to be in the pauperâs field.â
âAye. Thatâll do, Roger.â
âWhat happened, lass? Where are your shoes?â
âI left them behind.â I sat down and looked at my feet. There were cuts on them, the bottoms black with soil.
âYou got your gold pieces, didnât you?â Roger squinted at me, lighting his pipe.
I bit my lip. I had never been able to lie to Roger. Not in my entire life. The few times I did, he made me go out back to the bush and choose my own switch so he could whip me with it. I told him the truth always now. With a voice raspy from crying, I told him of what was offered and what I did in retaliation for it.
âThereâs many a fine lady whoâd take a gent up on an offer like that,â he said. âYou could be wearing those wide straw hats and silk dresses. Youâd have enough shoes for an army.â
âI have no intention of taking him up on it.â
âAye. Well, he wonât be so pretty to look at with one eye gone.â
I cringed at that.
âHe might send the authorities after you.â
âI donât think he knows where I live. I didnât tell him. There are lots of whore houses in Ajaccio.â
âNot many that house six foot blond boys named Kit, Iâd imagine.â
I sighed. âI donât care. I hope I missed his damn eye, but heâll have a scar to remember me by. Did I hear that The Black Moon docked yesterday?â
âAye. It did. What are you getting at, girl?â
âIâm planning to join her.â
âWith Harris Gareth as captain? The manâs a bastard if there ever was one. Youâll not be safe, girl. That is a daft idea. I thought youâd done with that long ago.â
âIâll be fine, Roger.