?
What if our real purpose on earth is
something as simple as
Have fun.
Feel good.
Be free.
If it is, then 99.9% of all adults
are failing miserably on this earth,
and when they die they’ll probably
be reincarnated as boring worker ants
because that’s about all they’re good for.
I almost feel sorry for Roger.
Not because he’s going
to be an ant in the next life,
but because he really believes
the crap he’s writing on the board.
TOP THREE REASONS FOR HAVING GOALS:
* Goals keep you focused
* Goals give you purpose
* Achieving Goals is something to celebrate
He says it’s best to write your goals on paper
and he hands us a yellow sheet and a felt-tip pen.
I know I should play along and scribble something like:
* Quit cutting
* Get straight As
* Join a club
But that would be too easy.
And then someone might expect me to do it.
Besides, who can think about goals
sitting six inches away from Jag’s lips?
Those soft pink pillow puffs,
dreamy as clouds and totally kissable.
So that’s the first goal I write,
in microscopic letters:
Lock lips with Jag Mancuzzi,
Then I notice Skylar
looking even thinner
after three peas for lunch
and I scribble down another goal:
Buy Skylar a jumbo burger.
Finally Donya catches my eye,
pretending to walk with a cane,
like that’s how old I’ll be
when I get out of Attaboys.
So I smooth out my paper
and write my last one:
Blow this place!
And Roger is right.
It does feel good to have goals.
Right up until the time
he comes around and collects them.
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Waiting and More Waiting
I wonder how long you can sit
in a folding chair before your spine
actually fuses to the metal.
Or how many Nemos
you can count on the wall
before you want to bang
your head against it.
As much as I hate the idiotic
group sessions, the time in
between is even worse.
It’s a million shades of boring.
The only entertainment besides
zoning out to Judge Judy reruns
or watching Bullhorn pluck her lip hairs,
is when we get a new arrival,
like the little head case
who rolls in right after group.
He’s about the same age
as my brother Sean.
Eight. Maybe Nine.
Supposedly, he jabbed
his teacher with a pencil.
But looking at him now,
crumpled in a ball on the floor,
he doesn’t seem dangerous to me.
It’s makes me wonder,
isn’t there something else
for an eight-year-old?
Like a ten-minute time-out,
or no recess,
or “Sorry, kid,
you lose your lollipop.”
Do they really have to Baker Act him?
Seriously?
And when he opens his mouth I realize
he doesn’t even speak English
because he’s all like
“lo siento, lo siento, lo siento”
but nobody’s listening
to the little stabber
no matter how many times
he says he’s sorry.
They try to lift him to his feet
and he goes sort of wild,
kicking and spinning,
knocking Ding Dong’s
sucker jar off the counter.
The orderlies swoop in
and loop this long white jacket
around him until he looks
like a caterpillar in a cocoon.
When they cart him off,
the only thing I can see
are his tiny inchworm eyes
crying out for help.
And it makes me think:
I don’t know why you
stabbed your teacher, kid.
But I sure hope you got her good.
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It’s Almost Time
I’m staring out the window.
Tapping on the glass.
Trying to remember the last time
I actually wanted to see my mother.
Tap.
Tap.
Tap.
Nope.
Nada.
Nothing’s coming.
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Visiting Hour
Okay.
Maybe I shouldn’t have rolled my eyes
at the very first question Mom
Peter Ackroyd, Geoffrey Chaucer