whatâs left of my brain.â
âOn what?â I asked, leaning in toward him.
âA suicide in the south.â
Mikeâs command was Manhattan North Homicide, which picked up all the murder cases north of Fifty-Ninth Street, to the tip of Manhattan bordered by the Harlem River. The Manhattan South Squad covered the southern half of the island. Both were elite units made up of skilled detectivesâmostly men, even at this point in timeâwho combined classic investigative talents with evolving forensic techniques.
I sat back. The NYPD was required to respond to suicide scenes. They were, after all, unnatural deaths.
âWhy you?â I asked. I wanted Mike to come home with me. He hadnât yet said that he would, so the last thing I needed was a case to take him away.
âItâs a helium inhalation suicide,â he said. âHotshot businessman in his hotel room.â
âTheyâre growing in the âright to dieâ movement, arenât they?â Mercer said.
âYeah. Weâve had two of them in the north this year, and one was mine. The south lieutenant called Peterson to see if we had any pointers for the scene investigation.â
âYouâre going too fast for me, guys,â I said. âWhatâs growing? Whatâs the manner of death?â
âExit bag over the head, Coop,â Mike said. âAsphyxiation bygas.â
FOUR
Mike drove me home after dinner. He stopped the car in the porte cochere that ran in front of my building like a driveway.
Vinny and Oscar were the doormen on duty. Vinny was at the passengerâs side door as soon as he saw Mike pull in. He opened it for me and waited while I turned back to Mike.
âComing up?â I swallowed hardâpride tooâas I asked the question.
âIâve got an early morning. You try to get some real sleep,â he said, flashing his trademark grin to reassure me that things between us were okay. âTomorrow night, for sure. After all, youâll be blonder by then.â
I leaned over and kissed him on the cheek. âDonât give up on me yet, okay? Iâm coming back, I promise.â
Vinny walked me inside, where Oscar had already pushed the button for the twentieth floor. There were security cameras in the elevators, and I knew they would be watching me all the way up.
I turned my key in the lock and pushed open the door. Iâd leftthe lights on when I went out for dinner, preferring to come home to familiar things that I could see.
It was only nine thirty. I poured a sensible amount of Dewarâs and took it into the bathroom with me to sip while I soaked in a hot whirlpool tub.
I climbed into bed with a stack of magazines, ignored the doctorâs advice about taking Ativan with my liquor, and started flipping through pages till sometime close to three A.M ., when the drugs overcame my insomnia and I fell soundly asleep.
When I woke up it was almost eleven A.M . Mike had left me three voicemails, among others from friends. He had started his day witnessing the autopsy of a young mother caught in the crosshairs of a gang shooting in Washington Heights. From the morgue, he had stopped at the boutique hotel where the suicide had occurred, and the final call was his attempt to express his concern for me.
I slipped into my robe and walked to the front door to pick up the newspapers.
The
Post
was on top of the others. Its entire front page was devoted to the man who had chosen a stark hotel room in which to end his life. The photograph was a headshot of a face familiar to fashionistas and socialites, as well as to entrepreneurs who had followedâand tried to emulateâhis rags-to-riches story.
Wolf Savage, the seventy-two-year-old clothing designer who had built an empire that rivaled those of Ralph Lauren and Oscar de la Renta, had carted two helium canisters to his hotel room, undressed himself, laid down on the bed, and put a plastic