real job, Mom?â I asked in a softer tone of voice.
âBecause I donât have to. Thatâs why I have you, so I can collect a check.â She quickly turned icy on me. Her comment made me feel as if I had no emotional value to her. I was just a person she could get a welfare check for.
âYou know that the back rent is due, and if you donât pay we could be put out again. I donât think the landlord is playing around.â
âIâm not worried about it,â she said and didnât offer up any type of comfort to assure me that everything would be okay. I wanted to scream and yell at her. I wanted to explode, but instead I just built a wall around my emotions for her. At the moment I refused to allow her to cripple me emotionally. If she didnât care, then I didnât, either.
âHave fun with your friend Simon,â I said as I walked off.
âI will!â she yelled back at me as I rushed off down the street.
I thought for sure the lines for registration would be long, but they werenât. I was able to go through the process fairly quickly. One of the school administrative staff printed out my class schedule and handed it to me. I glanced down at it and noticed that I had math first thing in the morning.
âNine oâclock in the morning is too early to have a math class. Can you switch it for me?â I asked the lady whoâd printed out my schedule. She looked at me for a long moment, as if Iâd lost my mind.
âI guess that means no,â I said sarcastically.
She frowned and yelled out, âNext.â
My biggest concern now was school supplies or my lack of them. I hated being unprepared but I really didnât have a choice in the matter. Iâd have to recycle the folders that I had from last year and latch on to someone when I needed additional supplies. It was an embarrassment Iâd have to contend with.
By twelve-thirty that afternoon Iâd arrived back home. As I came up the block I saw Toya still hanging around the front of the building toying around with her deck of cards.
âWhatâs up, girl?â I asked as I took a seat on a kitchen chair that Toya had placed on the stoop.
âHow are you just going to walk up and take my seat?â Toya tried to sound angry, but I didnât take her seriously.
âMy feet hurt from walking in these cheap shoes,â I explained as I allowed my fingertips to massage my scalp, which had suddenly started itching. It was a telltale sign that I needed to wash my hair and oil my scalp.
âDo you want me to braid your hair for you?â Toya asked.
âNo, I need to wash it before I do anything with it.â
âSo, how did registration go?â Toya asked.
âIt went okay. It went quickly. I have to figure out how Iâm going to get my school supplies because my motherâwell, you know that I canât depend on her.â A mischievous expression formed on Toyaâs face at that moment.
âYouâre right, Keysha. We canât depend on our parents because they arenât cut out for the job. What we need to do is look out for each other. Donât you agree?â
âYeah, I can agree with that,â I said as I scratched the dry skin on my left leg.
âListen, Iâve been thinking of a way that we can help each other.â Toya stopped shuffling her cards and focused all of her attention on me.
âWhy are you looking at me like that, Toya?â I asked, sensing she was calculating something in her mind.
âIâve got a plan. Junior needs some new clothes and so do you and I. My baby would look so cute in some baby Nikes and some new gear from Sean John. I want some stuff from Phat Farm, and I know that you do, as well. So here is what I say we should do. Letâs go down to the mall and get what we need.â
âYou must have come into some money,â I said, joking. She didnât say a word; she just