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and that I needed some rest.
I laid in his chest as he stroked my hair and right before he dozed off he
said, “I’ll go to war for you girl”. It kind of stunned me because I’d never
heard him talk like that before, but it was kind of sexy.

 
          It was so hard for
me to keep the truth from Darrin. I’d never lied to him about anything. There
was one thing that I was sure of, though, and that was the need to stay as far
away from Jake as possible. I even thought about changing my phone number but
then I’d have to think of a lie to tell Darrin about why I needed to change it.

 
          I went to the
office the next morning all geared up to tell dad about what happened, but,
when I walked through the doors there was a lot of commotion going on. I made
my way to my office and there was my dad, his secretary and a bunch of other
people clapping and drinking champagne. There was a huge cake sitting in the
middle of my conference table that read ‘Way to Go Kam’. My dad stepped out of
the crowd with the biggest Kool-Aid smile on his face that I had ever seen.
    “I’m so proud of you baby”, he said as he grabbed ahold of me
and squeezing me tight.
    “Well, thank you, dad”, I replied confused, “what have I done
to make you so proud”?
    “What have you done? You single handedly signed the biggest
deal that this firm has ever seen. The direct deposit hit this morning. You
just put us on another level, Kam. I may be able to retire off of this one”.

 
          I had absolutely no
idea of what was going on, I just smiled and mingled with the people like
everything was okay. Jake and I never discussed business because we couldn’t
get past our personal issues so how I signed this big deal was a mystery to me.
Something was not right and I didn’t have the energy to deal with it because I
was too weighed down with what happened in that hotel room in New York. I
finally cleared everyone out of my office so that I could try and get some work
done. Try, being the operative word. No matter what I did, I just couldn’t get
focused. I sat at my desk in the corner office on the eighth floor starring out
of the window wishing I could turn back the hands of time. All that kept
playing in my mind was Jake’s soft caramel skin pressed up against mine.
Remembering every single stroke; every touch; the way his tongue caressed my
body. This was a mess and as much as I wanted it to, it wasn’t just gonna
disappear into thin air.

 
          I didn’t know what
to do. I couldn’t call him. I definitely couldn’t see him again because one
look into those eyes would have pinned against the way somewhere. Absolutely
out of the question. I tried to wish it away, I tried to pray it away, I even
tried to drink it away, and after all of that, it was still there. But why
would Jake still send the money? It just didn’t make sense to me. Honestly
nothing has made sense to me since leaving that hotel room in New York. The
more I thought about it the worse I felt.
          Just when I was
about to slam my head on the desk and end it all, Darrin showed up at the
door.   He said that he wanted to check on
me because I wasn’t feeling well the night before. It was hurting me so bad to
have to lie to him. But, what else was I supposed to do? I couldn’t bear the
thought of telling him what happened with me and Jake. It would crush him.
Darrin is such a sweetheart, and while I was out being a whore he was home,
being faithful and loyal just like the man he is. I couldn’t take it. Maybe I
could embellish the truth a little, that wouldn’t be so bad would it?   I mean, what if I told him everything except
that we actually had sex? What if I said we just kissed? Or, what if I just
kept my mouth shut and left well enough alone.

 
          He took me to Wintzell’s
Oyster House in downtown Mobile for lunch. We talked, mainly about wedding
stuff. As much as I wanted to, I couldn’t bring myself to