out”
Now that I cleared
the air and could think about what I had just done, I realised that maybe I
went a bit overboard. “Oh shit what have I done?” but I didn’t care, I still
needed answers.
“Answer me
Frank, why?”
“You want to
know why”? Because I fancy you.
“What?”
“You heard. I
have fancied you since you first started to work for me and still fancy you
now”
I wanted to
see if your relationship with Jack was solid and strong and not just a passing
phase in your life.
“You fancy me?
But you’ve never ever given any indication that you liked me that way”
“Ever the
professional, that’s me. I know the age difference could have been a factor”
“God Frank
you’re not much older than me” oh no, have I given him an indication that I
don’t mind him liking me?
Frank
continued to get closer!
“Well so
there’s no more misunderstandings, I will say the words slowly. Jack, and, I,
are fine, happy, in love and plan to get married once we have set a date.”
He was
getting closer still, what should I do? He was now in front of me.
I backed up a
little so that Frank was not in my face.
My breathing
started to feel “different”
It should have
been heavy and angry, but it felt “ready and inviting”
I started to
go around Frank so that I could leave but he grabbed me by the waist and swung
me around; before I knew it, he was kissing me.
I put my hand
across his chest to fight him off, but his tongue was sliding in, twirling
around, finding a home in my mouth as if it should have always been there.
I struggled
with my mind as to why my grip on his chest seemed to be loosening and turning
into more of a hug.
Why my hands
were now sliding through his hair, trying to get a better grip instead of
fighting him off? I didn’t want to let him go.
My mouth was
no longer fighting him, but welcoming his tongue more and more.
I could taste
him; he had recently had strawberries and champagne, my favourite mix.
Now my mouth
wanted to suck in all that flavour.
My breathing! What
the hell was going on with my breathing?
He came up for
air and looked at me, shocked I think, to which I felt the same.
As I took in
some air myself, reality kicked in. What the hell was I doing? Like a bolt of
lightning up my ass I jerked away, shocked, shamed and embarrassed about what I
had just done and allowed to be done to me in return. I took a good look at
myself, my clothes slightly roughed up from the friction of both our bodies
together, and my breathing, “how did I get this sexual breathing”
Frank was
still looking at me and I at him. I then glanced down to find that he had
gotten aroused by me, and just like that I ran out of room.
I pressed the
elevator button so many times my finger ached, and then prayed that he would
not follow me out. I asked myself why did I do it. But most of all why did I
like it?”
Frank looked
on as Autum left his room; he remembered the look of shock on her face before
she ran out and what had occurred only a few minutes ago.
He remembered
her shouting at him, her face all flushed and angry, but all he wanted to do
was to go to her, to try and calm her down. Her breathing was heavy and loud,
but he just wanted to calm her down, he told himself.
Whilst she was
leaving his room he had held out his hand to stop her and to explain, but then
kissed her. Why? He didn’t know.
As she was
shouting at him his mind had drifted to her lips. They were pink and sexy and
his body was being drawn to them.
He had tried
to fight the urge but couldn’t help himself.
Once his lips
met hers he noticed they were so warm, soft and moist, his tongue slid inside
her mouth so easily. But how did it get in there?
Chocolate
& Mint, that’s what he could taste in her mouth. She must have had an
ice-cream while she was out. Her hands were on my chest trying to keep me from
her, but then she moved her hands into my hair willingly and her mouth , she
opened