Mother.â
âI didnât mean it that way, honey.â
âI have a hard time buying that right now,â she said, in a tone so like my own it gave me chills.
âLook, all I mean to say is, this is you and Vincent. I know how much you love him. That doesnât happen every day. You canât just give it up.â
âI already have. Thatâs why Iâm here. Iâve made up my mind.â
The door opened. Zoe, who was seven, was holding a squirmy baby August in her arms.
âMommyâs finished the cake sheâs been working on. Do you want to see it?â she asked shyly.
âNo, sweetie, not right now,â I said.
âYes, right now,â Annie said, grabbing the baby from Zoe just as he was about to do a face-plant on the hall carpet.
âThis conversation isnât over,â I insisted as we followed Zoe back to the kitchen.
âSo, what do you think?â Lael asked, her blue eyes opened wide.
Poised on a card table in front of the fridge was a six-tieredwedding cake. It looked like a cascading waterfall. Each tier was covered in the thinnest layer of soft blue marzipan rippled with rings of powdered sugar, as if raindrops had fallen onto the surface. There was a large water lily on each tier, the pastillage petals lightly sprinkled with pink dusting powder. At the base of the waterfall, on either side of the royal icing splashes of water, were piles of rock candy pebbles, tinted grayish blue. At the very top of the cake were two sugar-paste dragonflies so delicate you could make out the veins on their wings.
âExquisite,â I said.
âAmazing,â Annie offered.
Zoe looked proud.
Even baby August gurgled with pleasure.
âBut Annie and I have to finish something right now,â I said.
âNot now. Iâm going to lie down.â
âWell, letâs go back home. You can lie down there.â
âIâm staying here, Mom, and please donât make a fuss about it.â
âWhat, and getting marriage counseling from Lael?â I blurted out. âI donât think thatâs very sensible.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â Lael shot back.
âOh, I donât mean anything, you know that. Itâs just that youâre not exactly in a position to say much, considering youâve never bothered getting married.â
Lael held her tongue as I should have, especially considering the kids were standing right there. Slamming her pastry bag on the counter, she turned to stomp out of the room. The babyâs pacifier fell out of his mouth at precisely that moment. He started to howl.
âIâll get it,â I said, feeling contrite. Lael tried to beat me to it, and we collided. Zoe went to help us but slipped on some spilled silver sugar beads. Lael and I both reached for her, but not soon enough. Trying to steady herself, Zoe grabbed on to the flimsy card table, which tipped. As if in slow motion, the cake crashed to the floor.
Zoe gasped.
Tommy murmured, âOh, manâ¦â
Annie shot me a dagger look.
I didnât dare speak.
Even the baby was silent. Not a peep.
âOh, calm down, everyone,â Lael said with her usual aplomb. âIt was just a trial run. The weddingâs not for two whole weeks.â
4
T he next morning I woke at dawn. I was in a funk. My daughter was ruining her life and I had a date with a convicted murderer. Perhaps it was time for a run. People keep telling me exercise is beneficial. It gets the something flowing. Pheromones? Adrenaline? Something.
I pulled on my ratty blue leggings and a Testament T-shirt Annie had given me featuring the star of the show, the lion-hearted Fleet Commander Gow. My sneakers, however, were nowhere to be found. I thought they might be in the car, so I traipsed across the sopping wet lawn and soaked my socks, only to remember that I had taken them off at my desk the day before yesterday.
I tromped back