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and felt the skin and its curly hairs, was a little sideways to him, for it was always best like this at first, and I constantly reminded myself that English women just jumped into bed and went at it hard, but I didn’t. I tried not to.
    Hesitantly, we kissed. Lightly, timidly, I explored his lips as he did mine, he with his left hand on my seat and caressing it, smooth, so smooth and soft that skin.
    Another kiss followed, still timidly, still exploratory, like first-time lovers—it must be that way, but then my other hand slid up into his hair, and I pulled him towards me, all passion, everything else forgotten.
    We fell back on to that bed. I cried out to him, kissed him again and again, felt his kisses on my throat, my breasts.
    Came like a rocket. Ah, how can I ever forgive myself? The tension of the day, the fear—that awful fear of knowing you might lose someone you love.
    Jules thrust himself into me one last time, and I felt the throbbing, jerking, hammering of his lovely cock, and wrapped my arms and legs about him. Kissed him, hugged him, didn’t want to ever let go of him—ah, all those crazy things one thinks of at such a time.
    Only then, as he raised himself up a little to look down at me, did I reach back under the pillow to lie languidly beneath him with love in my eyes.
    There was an earring under the pillow, and I hid it in my fist because it wasn’t mine and I was too upset to confront him. A faceted citrine droplet that dangled from the end of a tiny length of silver chain, the links so delicate, the weave of them the work of great patience and skill.
    Old but not that old. Edwardian perhaps. Victorian? The Moulin Rouge, the Alcazar, the Cirque Medrano? The 1920s? I wondered.
    Winking in the half-light of that train, it stared up at me.
    ‘Madame … madame, forgive me for waking you, but there’s a call from Paris. An inspector from the Sûreté Nationale, a Gaétan Dupuis. They must have asked to have your call traced.’
    I nod. I shake my head to clear it of its memories. ‘Has my nurse come back yet from her shopping?’
    ‘Only to leave a few parcels, to check on you and go out again.’
    ‘Good. Did this inspector ask for me by name?’
    ‘Ah, no, madame. He has simply asked if the caller was still here and if he could speak with you.’
    ‘You gave him no details?’
    ‘Of course not, madame.’
    What is it about the sight of a telephone that terrifies? The instrument stands in judgement, the receiver lies as if wounded, and you know that the Gestapo will be listening.
    Dupuis … the thinning hair, those mouse-brown eyes whose look could be so intense, the front tooth that was capped with gold, the nicotine stains.
    ‘ Allô? Oui, oui, c’est moi. Qu’est-ce que vous désirez, monsieur?’
    That voice comes back to me. It’s like yesterday. I want to scream, to cry out and turn away from the blows. I want to vomit, but they’ve shoved me under again, and I can’t breathe in anything but water and must have air! They yanked me out but only at the last moment …
    ‘Madame, what is it?’ asks the manager.
    ‘Nothing! Nothing. Forgive me, please.’
    I hear Dupuis breathing at the other end of the line. Paris, 11 rue des Saussaies, the offices of the Sûreté, those also of the Gestapo. The caller asks, ‘Madame, which camps were you in?’
    I say it like a confession. I can’t stop myself. ‘Auschwitz and Bergen-Belsen.’
    Dupuis sucks in a breath, and I see him holding it as they’ve thrown me to the floor and lifted me up to face him yet again. ‘What’s your name, please?’ he asks.
    Please? Ah, nom de Jésus-Christ, what is this? ‘That I can’t tell you. I’m not the one you’ll be dealing with. I’ve only been asked to contact you people.’
    ‘Then there’s something you ought to know, madame. Our consciences are clean. We’ve been cleared by the Résistance. The matter’s been settled.’
    ‘ Ah, bon , Inspector, then you have nothing to worry