been the reliable one. Always the one who took on the burdens of the family and held things together. She knew that and accepted it. Everyone thought sheâd run away to Calgary for treatment but sheâd really gone because it was best for the family. All she was trying to do was make things better again, to make up for the time sheâd been gone. She knew sheâd left them in a bind and carried her own bit of guilt about it, even as she knew there was nothing she could have done to prevent it. âI am better,â she insisted. âI thought talking to you might be different. I thought youâd understand, but I guess not.â She gave the reins a jerk and wheeled away, pushing Calico into a canter over the frozen prairie.
She heard his shout behind her but the wind was in her face now and it felt glorious. They could all go hang as far as she was concerned! Hooves pounded on the solid ground, sending up a familiar rhythm. Right now she feltas if she could ride for days. The air burned deliciously in her lungs. Sheâd needed this so badly.
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Clay blew out a breath of frustration as Megan took off. Why did she take everything he said in the wrong way? He urged Clover to hurry the pace as they followed Meg and Calico up over the butte. Heâd only wanted her to try looking at it from her familyâs side. They were afraid for her.
Heck, he was afraid for her. She looked wonderful, said all the right assurances. But he still had his doubts that everything would be as okay as she insisted. And that niggling bit of doubt scared the hell out of him.
He drew up alongside of Calico and rather than try to stop her, he kept pace. Megan was the most stubborn woman he knewânext to his aunt Stacyâand he knew sometimes it was better to ride out a storm rather than trying to beat it back. Something warm and satisfying expanded inside him, knowing she was an armâs length away, her body moving in unison with his. She looked over once and he met her gaze. Her chocolatey eyes glittered at him with devilment. She flashed a challenge of a smile and gave Calico a little nudge to ease her a nose ahead.
He let her take the lead. This time. Because she seemed to need it.
When the horses began to get winded, Meg slowed, bringing them back to a walk. He caught up with her and reined in, the horsesâ strides matching each other. âFeel better?â he asked mildly.
âMuch,â she said.
She was actually glowing from the physical exertion, her cheeks with pink roses and her eyes dancing beneath the ugly hat. She looked irresistible, all color and snap.Clay frowned. Irresistible? Megan? Uh-uh. She was his best friendâs little sister. And his friend, too. Meg had always seemed to be able to read him better than anyone. They had known each other so long that defining their relationship was difficult. One distinction was easy enough, thoughâplatonic. Getting involved with Megan Briggs would be messyâDawson would have his head. Add in the other baggage she brought to the table and he was ready to ride in the other directionâfast. He quickly dismissed the thought.
âI donât think it was just the horses who needed to get out,â he observed. âYouâre wound tighter than a spring. I used to be able to read you like a book. Not anymore. Thereâs too much going on in your head, isnât there?â
âI suppose so. Sometimes I donât know what Iâm feeling or thinking. And Iâm not good at sitting and waiting.â
âNever have been.â He chuckled. âEver.â
âWhich is probably why Iâm feeling so frustrated. I need to do something, Clay.â
Something seemed to be pulling them together. She trusted him, he realized with surprise. She was confiding in him and he was shocked and a little bit honored considering how theyâd left things all those months ago. Sheâd come to him to share her plans