says roughly, then clears his throat. âYouâre fifty feet above the water.â
âOkay, maâam, steady on the descent and letâs slow it down,â Lego says. âMess, can you see if you can pull her window open?â
Messy pokes his head into the cockpit and reaches over me to grab the window handle. He starts coughing and has to pull back. âShit! I couldnât get it.â
âHow you doinâ, maâam?â Lego says.
âI still donât have a visual,â I say.
I donât think Iâve ever gripped the controls as tightly as I am now. Iâm flying on instruments, weâre approaching the back of a ship, one with a very small flight deck, a deck that is anything but stable, and one that I canât see. I breathe through the narrowest slit in my teeth. I know Iâll start coughing if I open my mouth any wider.
âMaâam, we need to descend, nice and easy,â Lego says. âWeâre almost at threshold. Keep it steady. Steady. There. Crossing threshold. Steady. Weâre fifteen feet above the deck.â
I look up. Thank God. The shipâs superstructure and the stabilization barâa horizon reference. Itâs moving in and out of the smoke. Oh, crap. Now itâs gone. I canât see the deck below me at all, which is probably a good thing because frankly, I donât want to know. My eyes go back to the gyro.
âOkay, maâam, back two. Steady. Left one. Steady. The deckâs movinâ like a motherfucker. Steady. Iâll try to call it on a rise. Steady. Back one. Steady.â
Iâm swimming in sweat and my hands are starting to cramp. Come on! Get this down!
Because Commander Claggett has jettisoned his escape hatch, the sound of the rotors echoing against the metal of the aircraft hangar doors resonates like thunderclaps. Wind gusts through the cockpit, rushing across my face, yet doing nothing to rid the aircraft of smoke.
âOnce youâre on deck, youâll need to keep flyinâ,â Lego says. âThereâs a good chance we might have to pick up again. Back one. Steady. Up one. Steady. Left one. Steady. Steady.â
I donât know how much longer I can hold this. My throat is scratchy and I canât start coughing now. Commander Claggett is hacking next to me. Oh please, let us get down fast.
âSorry, maâam. Left one. Steady. Left one. Steady. The deckâs just ⦠goddamn it! Steady. Left one. Okay, steady. Steady. Now! Down, down, down!â
I drive the helicopter to the deck, landing firmly. The chock and chain men run under the rotor arc to secure us.
The ocean lifts the ship, tossing it down the steep backside of a colossal swell, the wheels of the helicopter perilously close to slipping. If they do, we would slide straight across the deck and topple over the edge. So I move the stick like Iâm flying, to keep the wheels in place while the men underneath work to tie us down. Iâm still operating in the blind, so the manipulating of the controls is happening by feel. Shit. This is not good.
âEasy back on the cyclic,â Lego says. âStay with it.â
Come on! Come on! Come on!
âStay easy back,â Lego says. âWeâre still pitchinâ down. Stay with it. Stay with it.â
God, this is taking forever!
âDamn it already! Come on!â Lego says, imploring the chock and chain men to hurry. âOkay, steady, maâam. Weâre starting to pitch up now. Easy forward. Easy forward. Youâve got this. Steady. One more chain to go. Youâve got this. Steady. Steady. Okay, weâre chained. Shut the bird down ASAP!â
You donât have to tell me twice.
I slump in my seat. Holy hell â¦
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âMess, get the pax out the back!â Lego shouts.
Commander Claggett reaches by feel for the switches to kill the engines, while at the same time, Lego, who has jumped down to the