when you see those in life, you take them.â
This
felt like a moment of opportunity. And not to prove that I wasnât an idiot by listing all the facts I knewâabout how the Families provided illegal transplants for the many, many peoplerejected from or buried at the bottom of the government lists. How more than two-thirds of those who made it through all the protocols to qualify for a spot on the official transplant list died before receiving an organ. Or to recite the unofficial Family motto:
Landlows help people who canât afford to wait, but
can
afford to pay
.
âFine, tell me what I donât know,â I said. âTell me whatâs going on, why you and Father are fighting, and whatâs keeping you so busy. Tell me
everything
.â
Garrett muttered something that sounded suspiciously like âDonât do this,â but since my brother ignored him, I did too.
Carterâs eyes met mine in the rearview mirror. âNone of this leaves the car, Pen. Iâm trusting you.â
âI understand.â I sat a little straighter. âAnd I promise.â
âWait,â said Garrett. âBefore we drag her into this, letâs just hear what she wanted to ask us. There
was
something you wanted, right, Penny?â
I thought about my red folder. Underneath the blood count charts were stacks of glossy brochures, a pile of completed applications. Which did I want more: a future with school, a normal life, friends, or one that included the Family Business?
âPen?â prompted Carter. âIs everything okay?â
âEverythingâs really good actually.â I took a deep breathâmaybe the two futures werenât incompatible. Maybe I could have both. âMy platelet counts have been decent since mid-May. Iâve gone more than seven weeks without needing an immunoglobulin infusion. Thatâs my longest in â¦
years
. I think Iâm heading into another remission.â
âSerious, Pen? Thatâs amazing!â Carter slapped his fist against the horn and matched its blaring noise with his own
whoop!
âWow.â Garrettâs celebration wasnât hand-waving and yelling. Heâd gone still, except for a slight nod of his head and cautious grin. âWhat does Dr. Castillo say? Your parents?â
âDr. Castillo hasnât said anything yet, not beyond, âyour numbers still look good.â But last weekâs count was around eighty-five Kâand thatâs without any treatment for forever! While thatâs not impressive for you guys with your several
hundred
thousand platelets, itâs significant for me. And if this is another remission, I want to take advantage of it.â
When I was twelve Iâd had ten months of steady, healthy, treatment-free counts. It had been a time of tentative parental hugs, nibbles at normalcy, and minutely planned trips off-estate.
It was during one of these that everything came crashing down. During a fitting for my first bra, the clerk said, âYou sure do bruise easily ⦠and quickly.â Sheâd pointed to the purple stripe her measuring tape had created around my torso. Iâd responded by bleeding from my nose and gums. Mother had screamed and screamed. Our driver, Dylan, had broken every traffic law rushing me back to the clinic, which I didnât leave for a full week.
One CBC laterâplatelet count four thousandâand Iâd been back in lockdown.
âTake advantage of it
how
?â asked Garrett.
I gulped. This was my most cherished daydream, and I was handing it over for scrutiny. âI want to go to school in the fall.â
âYou hate Nolan that much?â joked Carter. âThough, after dealing with him in Business meetings this summer, I get it.â
I gritted my teeth at the mention of Nolan. âIsnât he the most frustrating man on the planet? But no. It wouldnât matter who my tutor was. Itâll be