made a face, but gave up arguing. Nobody won against Helen and they all knew it. When it was time to go to bed, she drew Mark aside in the hall, signalling for Deirdre to go on ahead.
Dee hesitated, mindful of her motherâs orders to keep a strict eye on them. But Helen herself was only a few feet away in the kitchen and surely one little goodnight kiss couldnât do any harm?
âGo on,â Sylvia said urgently, jerking her head to the stairs and at last Dee obeyed, trying to sort out her thoughts.
There was another reason for her reluctance to leave them alone; one she couldnât admit to herself because she didnât fully understand it. It made no sense. After all, Mark was Sylviaâs property.
Wasnât he?
Upstairs, she undressed slowly, trying not to let her mind dwell on the two lovers enjoying a tender embrace. In bed, she read for a little while, waiting for Sylvia to appear, but nothing happened.
When she could stand it no longer, she crept out into the hall and listened to the soft sounds coming from the bottom of the stairs, trying to picture what they would be doing.
Dee was a child of her time. At seventeen, sheâd never known a passionate kiss, or even a non-passionate one. Nor had she seen one, unless you included Robert Taylor kissing Greta Garbo in the film of Camille. Apart from that, her knowledge of men and women was gleaned from her studies as a nurse, technical information that told her nothing of the passionate reality. About that she was as ignorant and innocent as any other respectable girl.
But tonight something had changed, making her aware of feelings and sensations that had existed beyond her consciousness. Mark had smiled at her, and heâd sat opposite her at the table, where she could see his face all the time. And nothing was the same. Now she was all avid curiosity to explore,but how could she? Mark was off-limits, and no other man existed.
From downstairs came a soft gasp followed by smothered laughter and a murmuring sound, telling of pleasure enjoyed to the full. Dee closed her eyes, her heart pounding, her breath coming in long gasps. She wantedâwhat? She couldnât tell. She only knew that she yearned for something above and beyond anything sheâd known before.
From the kitchen came the sound of Helen banging pots and pans about, letting them know she was still there and theyâd better stop what they were doing. Next moment Dee heard footsteps approaching and hurriedly retreated into the bedroom. By the time Sylvia came in, she was huddled down under the covers.
âHello,â she murmured in a carefully sleepy voice. âHave you said your goodnights?â
âYes, thank you.â Sylvia sounded pleased with herself. âWhat do you think of him?â
âHeâs all right. That motorbike is amazing, though.â
âOh, the bike!â Sylvia said dismissively.
âI thought you liked it. It must be wonderful to ride with him.â
âWell, it isnât. I thought I was going to die. Of course I didnât tell him, heâs so proud of it. You should hear him talk! Heâs just as bad about cars.â
âYou donât sound as though you have much in common,â Dee observed casually.
âYou wait until I get to work on him. Heâll do anything for me. Iâll have him just the way I want in no time.â
Dee didnât answer this, but something told her Sylvia was wrong. Beneath Markâs easy-going charm, she suspected a stubborn will to have his own way.
And yet, how could she tell? she wondered. What did she know of him, except that he was more good-looking than any man had the right to be, that he could make her laugh, andthat his mind had a link with her own. At the table they had shared the âdevilâ joke, which Sylvia hadnât understood, and that had been the sweetest moment.
More than sixty years later, it still lived in her mind.
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