was he nervous?
Hearing another laugh, Nathaniel pulled his gaze from her and looked at the table where six of the seven Stoltzfus brothers were gathered. Joshua, whom heâd recently heard had married again after the death of his first wife, and Ruth, the oldest, who had been wed long enough to have given her husband a houseful of kinder , were missing. A pulse of sorrow pinched at him because he noticed Ezra was sitting where Paul, the familyâs late patriarch, had sat. Paul had welcomed him into the family as if Nathaniel were one of his own sons.
Nathaniel stared at the men rising from the table. It was startling to see his onetime childhood playmates grown up. Heâd known time hadnât stood still for them. Yet the change was greater than heâd guessed. Isaiah wore a beard that was patchy and sparse. He must be married, though Nathaniel hadnât heard about it. All the Stoltzfus brothers were tall, well-muscled from hard work and wore friendly smiles.
Then the twins opened their mouths and asked him how he liked running what they called the Paradise Springs Municipal Zoo. Nothing important had changed, he realized. They enjoyed teasing each other and everyone around them, and he was their chosen target tonight. Nothing they said was cruel. They poked fun as much at themselves as anyone else. Their eyes hadnât lost the mischievous glint that warned another prank was about to begin.
For the first time since heâd returned to Paradise Springs, he didnât feel like a stranger. He was among friends.
Nathaniel sat at the large table. When Esther put a slice of pie and a steaming cup of kaffi in front of him, he thanked her. She murmured something before hurrying away to bring more cups to the table. He had no chance to talk to her because her brothers kept him busy with questions. He was amazed to learn that Jeremiah, whoâd been all thumbs as a boy, now was a master woodworker, and Isaiah was a blacksmith as well as one of the districtâs ministers. Amos leaned over to whisper that Isaiahâs young bride had died a few months earlier, soon after Isaiah had been chosen by lot to be the new minister.
Saddened by the familyâs loss, he knew he should wait until he had a chance to talk to Isaiah alone before he expressed his condolences. He sensed how hard Isaiah was trying to join in the gut humor around the table.
Nathaniel answered their questions about discovering the alpacas on the farm and explained how he planned to plant the fields in the spring. âRight now, the fields are rented to neighbors, so I canât cut a single blade of grass to feed those silly creatures this winter.â
âYouâre staying in Paradise Springs?â Wanda asked.
âThatâs my plan.â His parents werenât pleased heâd left Indiana, though theyâd pulled up roots in Lancaster County ten years ago. Heâd already received half a dozen letters from his mamm pleading for him to come home. She acted as if heâd left the Amish to join the Englisch world.
â Wunderbaar , Nate... I mean, Nathaniel.â Wanda smiled.
âCall me whichever you wish. It doesnât matter.â
âI know your family must be pleased to have you take over the farm that has been in Zook hands for generations. It is gut to know itâll continue in the family.â
âJa.â He sounded as uncertain as he felt. The generations to come might be a huge problem. He reminded himself to be optimistic and focus on the here and now. Once he made the farm a success, his nephews and nieces would be eager to take it over.
His gaze locked with Estherâs. He hadnât meant to let it happen, but he couldnât look away. There was much more to her now than the little girl sheâd been. He had a difficult time imagining her at the teacherâs desk instead of among the scholars, sending him and her brothers notes filled with plans for after