to say he couldn’t be held
accountable for the behavior of his crazy friends and
slipped on a fitted black T-shirt that one of the boys tossed
him.
“Are you okay, Huggie Bear?” I asked, protectively
reaching up to fix his hair. I didn’t like it when his friends
played rough. My attentiveness raised a few eyebrows
among his friends.
“Beth.” Xavier put his hand on my shoulder. “You have got
to stop cal ing me that in public.”
“Sorry,” I said sheepishly.
Xavier laughed. “Come on, let’s get something to drink.”
After grabbing a beer for Xavier and soda for me, we
headed out to the back porch and settled down on a deep
sofa that someone had dragged out. Pink-and-green paper
lanterns hung from the eaves, casting the withered yard in a
soft light. Beyond it, the fields stretched out to the edge of
the dense, black woodland.
Aside from the rowdy antics of the partygoers inside, the
night was stil and tranquil. A rusty tractor stood abandoned
in the high grass. I was just thinking how picturesque it
looked, like a painting from a forgotten time, when a lacy
undergarment floated out of the side window coming to
land at our feet. I blushed deeply as I realized there was a
couple inside and they weren’t engaged in deep and
meaningful conversation. I quickly averted my gaze and
tried to imagine what the old house might have been like in
the days before the Knox family let it fal to rack and ruin. It
would have been grand and beautiful back in the day when
girls stil had chaperones and dancing consisted of a
graceful waltz played on a grand piano, nothing like the
gyrating and thrusting going on inside right now. Social
gatherings would have been stylish and tame compared to
the havoc being wreaked upon the old house tonight. I
imagined a man in coattails bowing before a woman in a
flowing dress on this very same porch, although in my
imagination it was polished and new and honeysuckle
wound around the quaint posts. In my mind’s eye I saw a
star-studded night sky, the double doors flung open so the
sound of music trickled out into the night.
“Hal oween sucks.” Ben Carter from my literature class
broke through my reverie as he flopped down beside us. I
would have answered him, but Xavier’s strong arm
encircled me and made it difficult for me to concentrate on
anything else. Out of the corner of my eye I could see his
hand hanging loosely over my shoulder. I liked seeing the
silver faith ring on him—it was a sign that he was taken,
unavailable to anyone but me. It seemed oddly out of place
on an eighteen-year-old boy so beautiful and so popular.
Anyone else seeing him for the first time would take one
look at his perfect form, his cool turquoise gaze, that
charming smile, the shock of nutmeg hair fal ing across his
forehead and know that he could have his pick of girls.
They would simply assume that like any normal teenage
boy, he would be out enjoying the perks of being young and
attractive. Only those close to him knew that Xavier was
completely committed to me. Not only was he
breathtakingly gorgeous, he was a leader, looked up to and
respected by everybody. I loved and admired him, but I stil
couldn’t quite believe he was mine. I couldn’t fathom that I
had been so lucky. Sometimes I worried he might be a
dream and if I let myself lose focus, he might fade away.
But he was stil sitting beside me, solid and secure. He
answered Ben when it became apparent that I had zoned
out.
“Relax, Carter, it’s a party,” he said, laughing.
“Where’s your costume?” I asked, forcing myself back to
reality.
“I don’t do dress-ups,” Ben said cynical y. Ben was the
sort of guy who thought everything was puerile and beneath
him. He managed to maintain his contemptuously superior
persona by engaging in nothing. At the same time he
always turned up just in case he might miss out on
something. “My God, they’re sickening.” He