city! Donât you just hate it?â she said when she saw me. âEver noticed how cycle path sounds like psychopath if you say it three times quickly?â
âCycle path. Cycle path. Cycle path.â
âSo how was your day, love?â
âOh, you know, not bad.â
âYouâre a mine of information. But I canât help noticing you donât have your sketch pad with you. Remember what I said about not wasting your God-given gift.â
I felt a flush of guilt about that, but I couldnât tell her what Iâd really been up to. Sheâd think it was a lot stranger than frequenting cemeteries.
âAnyway, you can tell me what you did do,â she said, and twitched her bag, showing me the parcel of takeout food inside it. âYou can tell me over a supper of wonton soup and shredded chili beef â your favorite.â
âBut we canât afford . . . ,â I started to say. âCan we?â
Mum shook her head, then ran a hand back through her dark blond hair. âNo, we canât. And you know what? I donât care. You have to live a little now and then, otherwise youâd go mad. Do us a favor, hon, and carry this for me. My arm aches.â
âYouâre in a good mood,â I said, taking the bag. I hadnât seen her so buoyant for ages.
âWell, I should be, considering I got the biggest tip Iâve ever seen in my life today.â
âReally? Who from?â
âSome man in a suit, very posh and smart and well spoken. A fish out of water where I work. Hands me a twenty-quid note for a six-quid roast dinner and tells me to keep the change.â
âBlimey.â
âI know! So I ask if heâs made a mistake, does he know heâs tipping me fourteen quid, and he waves me away like itâs nothing. âSee you again,â he says as he goes out the door. Oh, I hope so.â
âMe too. Maybe heâll come back again and sweep you off your feet and . . .â
Mum clammed up then, lowering her gaze as we left the park. I knew right away I shouldnât have said it. Perhapsbecause of the way Dad had left us â it had never been that clear to me â she never spoke to me about men.
We crossed Lansdowne onto Middleton Road. Mum didnât speak again until weâd climbed the cool stairwell, the coolest place in town today, and negotiated the planters and pigeon droppings on our balcony to unlock the door.
âAnyway,â she said, unpacking the food in the kitchen, âthatâs dinner from Hai Haâs with change left over. Only thing that bothers me is, he said I looked like I could use the money. Now I feel insulted.â
âHe probably didnât mean it like that.â
âWhat else would he mean?â
âWhere you work. Itâs a bit of a dive. He probably thought you must be hard up to work there.â
âHmm.â
âThatâs probably all he meant.â
âProbably. But still. All the same.â
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We felt stuffed after the meal, and I told her my day had been a good one without explaining the reasons why. I did mention the squirrel but not the four-leaf clovers, and I mentioned the girl in the canal but not Mr. Octoberâs part in what happened. I even told her Iâd had a hot dog for lunch but not where Iâd gotten it.
She seemed satisfied by my story, anyway, and by the time Iâd cleared the plates from the breakfast bar she was nodding over the table, close to sleep.
Another dayâs waitressing had worn her out, and I felt sad that sheâd been so happy over a lousy fourteen pounds. By the time Iâd washed up, sheâd crawled from the kitchen to the living room sofa and was drifting away in front of the TV.
Upstairs, I opened my sketch pad for the first time that day and began to draw, just doodling at first. I was trying to picture the faces Mr. October had shown me on Lamb Lane, but now they all merged into
Alana Hart, Lauren Lashley