been totally busy because with the renovation at the Y itâs practically like theyâre building a whole new one.â
âWell,â Shawn said, âmy dadâs got nothing but time for football now that he doesnât have a real job anymore. So heâs totally focused on the team. And me.â
âYeah,â Ben said, âI check him out sometimes and heâs smiling his head off, watching every move you make.â
âTell me about it.â
âHe seems like such a good guy.â
â Great guy,â Shawn said. âBut, dude, trust me, we better be great this season, because heâs gonna take it hard if weâre not.â
âIâm not worried,â Ben said.
âYou never did last year, no matter how badly we were losing.â
âMy mom says the only word thatâs not in my vocabulary is âcanât,ââ Ben said. âBut I tell her, only if she stops with the c âs.â
Their pizza was ready. They polished it off at record speed, hardly any talking now. When they finished, Shawn said, âMy dad said he had a good talk with you.â
âHe didnât have to,â Ben said. âHeâs the coach, Iâm cool with whatever he wants me to do.â
âGrown-ups love to have their talks,â Shawn said, putting air quotes around âtalks.â
Before Ben could add anything to that, Shawn said, âHe might not know how good youâd be at quarterback, but I do.â
Ben didnât know why, but he felt Shawn had gotten down to it now, the real reason why he agreed to have lunch. Ben almost smiled. He wanted to get to know Shawn better, maybe even be boys with him, not thinking that Shawn might want to do the same with him.
But this wasnât a âtalkâ â with or without air quotes â that Ben wanted to have with Shawn. The one about how much he wanted to be a quarterback, how much he wanted what Shawn had and was probably going to have for a long time.
âOh, donât stress on that,â Ben said. â My dad tells me all the time that my real position is just football player. And everybody knows that youâre a better QB than me.â
Shawn started to say something, then stopped, like a pump fake on the field.
âThat first night of tryouts? I saw that play you made after you scrambled. Aaron Rodgers doesnât throw on the run better than you do.â
Everybody on the team knew how much of a Green Bay Packers fan Ben was. He had other teams he liked in sports. But even living a long way from Lambeau Field, the Packers were his favorite. And Rodgers was his favorite player now. He was a lot bigger than Doug Flutie. But Ben loved the way he played, especially every time he got flushed out of the pocket and had to improvise.
Ben drank some of his Gatorade and said, âYeah, but Iâm smart enough to know you canât do that on every down. Makestuff up as you go along, like itâs some fun play I drew up in the dirt.â
âYou always seem to have fun,â Shawn said.
âWhat, you donât?â
Shawn said, âNot like you.â
âWhatâs more fun than playing football?â Ben said.
âOh, nothing,â Shawn said. âNothing at all. My dad is always saying that the worst day he ever had in pads was great.â
âPretty much my attitude,â Ben said.
âYeah,â Shawn said. âYouâre lucky.â
Shawn pointed to the big clock behind the counter. It was three oâclock. Shawn said his dad would be there any minute to pick them up. He paid the check and they went outside to wait, Ben thinking this had been a good idea.
A good day.
Except.
Except Ben couldnât shake the idea, like a defender he couldnât shake, that there had been something else Shawn wanted to talk about at lunch today.
That there was something Shawn had wanted to tell him, but hadnât.
Their first