trying to reach me, too; I wished I could see the look on his face. âWeâd given up on you! Come to our hotel. Weâre leaving for an orphanage in the township in two hours. Sofia will be glad. Youâll see our white van outside the lobby.â
She never asked my rate, not that it probably mattered to her.
An orphanage would be the perfect reality check, I realized. Instant perspective.
I couldnât wait to get back to work in Cape Town.
âWhat is it with adopting these African babies?â Len said when I clicked to his call. âDo they poop Botox, or what?â Rachel Wentz must have mentioned the orphanage to Len, because I wouldnât have. Any time I spend with a client is their own business.
âWhat is it with folks who donât want
any
kids, but feel free to judge people who do?â I said, a bit sharply. âOrphans need homes.â
âTen, youâre so damn naive. Sofia Maitlin doesnât do anything unless itâs been plotted by three publicists, two managers, an agent, and a partridge in a pear tree. Expect a red carpet at the orphanage doorâthis is probably her new Oscar campaign. And gee, what a coincidence, Rachel Wentz is there. This is disgusting. That kid will need therapy.â
Lenâs cynicism was hard to stomach first thing in the morning.
âAt least heâll be rich enough to pay for it,â I said. âI say live and let live.â
âYeah, weâll see. Hey, I almost forgot: What about April? Howâd it go?â
I love you, Alice.
âDidnât.â
There was a long silence on the other end. Len had had a minor nervous breakdown during his divorce, although I was one of only two people who knew. Iâd found him sobbing under his desk one day, but we never talked about that. Only two months before, Iâd taken April by his office to meet himâthe first time Iâd brought a date out into the light. Len had beamed at me like a proud father, gushing about how good April was for me.
âShit. Iâm really sorry,â Len said. âYou know I mean that.â
âThanks. Next subject.â
âTen, Iâve been there. Your guts just got stomped to dogshit, and you need a boost. Boy, do I get that head space.â
âYou stink at pep talks. Move on.â
Len pressed on with his true agenda: â. . . but no matter what, do
not
bump uglies with the bossâSofia Maitlin is very engaged. To be honest, too many people know about the Lynda Jewell thing. You get tied to Maitlin, youâre the
Enquirerâs
poster boy for a year.â
âFuck you very much, Len.â
âTennyson, promise me you will not screw Sofia Maitlin.â
Len only called me Tennyson as my friend, not my agent. Heâd watched me flush my career away once. He knew I had sex with every woman who came near me, mostly because I could. The grieving woman Iâd coaxed into bed in L.A. soon after April cut me loose was engaged, too. I was still a whore, whether or not I charged money. April had just helped me forget for a while.
And Sofia Maitlin was one of the most beautiful women in the world.
âI promise you,â I told Len, ânobody will know if I fuck Sofia Maitlin. Especially you.â
âTen, this isnât a jokeââ
I hung up, realizing the harsh truth: I could easily start working day and night again, like the Michael Jackson song. It wasnât so far behind me.
So what?
my mind challenged.
At least youâd get paid. You should send a damn bill to April. She was joyriding you, man, and in this world, joy comes with a price tag.
Anger was my medicine, softening the bite. I drove faster on the nearly deserted road, creeping far beyond the 120-kilometer-per-hour speed limit. My iPhone was on shuffle, and Lynyrd Skynyrdâs âFreebirdâ played on the carâs speakers next. The Southern-fried beat of liberation suited me fine. I jammed on