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and look at Lune. She’s mouthing things at me like,
'What the hell?’ and 'OMG'. I’m not great at reading lips but her wide mouth
makes it easy. I shake my head subtly, and continue dancing. I can't shake the
unsettling conflict inside of me.
    I think he can feel me cooling off. He smiles like we are
friends again, "You still thinking New York then?" he asks over the
music.
    I nod, “Yeah. I saved up enough for this year, and when I turn
twenty, I’ll get the money from my dad. So that should get me through next
year. Two years should be long enough to not worry about starving. Plus, I'll
work full-time wherever I end up. So the savings will be my ‘in-case’ money.”
    He pulls me in close and kisses alongside my mouth again. I
know he isn’t actually kissing my lips, but it’s close. No one has ever been
that brave before.
    No matter how badly I want to tell him he shouldn’t, I don’t.
I close my eyes and let his skin against mine feel like everything I have been
missing. I like the touching and the way he feels all over me. It’s different,
and after eighteen years, different is exceptional.
    I run my hands up into his hair. It’s softer than I thought it
would be. He cups my ass. My skin is on fire. It feels the same as when I’m
singing, like we’re alone and everything is electrically charged.
    I look up as he smiles down on my lips, "Can I just kiss
you?"
    The thing I am makes me shake my head before I really even
think about it. "Aren't you at least a little scared?"
    "I'm more scared of never doing this." His eyes are
lit up with passion, staring down on my mouth. It almost feels like he’s
kissing me. I feel vulnerable and scared just as the wind arrives.
    It’s a cold wind.
    It’s always cold.
    It blows through the room and chills us all. We stop dancing
and look over at the two girls struggling with the front door. The wind is
trying to get to me. It wants me safe. I take the warning to heart. The reality
of it all crashes in on me. I blush and pull away, giving Lune a look. She’s at
my side in an instant, "We should get going. See ya 'round, Sam." She
says it in a singsong voice and drags me away.
    I look back at him. He looks confused. He’s doing the math in
his head. No doubt coming to the obvious conclusion, that I caused the wind.
    As Lune drags me out of the party, I catch a glimpse of the
grey eyes from the corner. He gives me a look I will never forget. It breaks my
heart and makes my stomach cringe all at once, and I don’t even know why. The
look is almost like he is saying I told you so. Like he knew it would happen.
    Once we’re outside, the wind dies down after about a minute.
Lune straightens her hair and glances around, "Spooky, Lynnie."
    I give her a grave look , “I didn’t make it windy. The door came open.”
    She laughs, “I know that.” She drags me to the car. Sarah and
Maggie come running out after us. Sarah has my guitar.
    "Where's Jenny?"
    Maggie laughs, "She isn’t coming."
    Lune opens the door, "Slut."
    We laugh and try to let it all be nothing, but my heart is
racing and I feel lightheaded. I look out the window at the dark night as we
drive to my place and know it was something.
    Maggie mutters, "Bastion was hot, huh? But kind of
sleazy, I think." I glance back to see her wagging her eyebrows.
    I make a face, "What?"
    She nods, "You guys must have noticed the way he was
eyeing all the girls up."
    "I don’t know about that. I never saw him doing
that." I want to say "to anyone else" but I leave that part out.
    Lune nudges me, "What was up with you and Sam?"
    I shake my head, "I don’t know."
    Sarah leans forward, "Did he kiss you as the wind
started?"
    I roll my eyes, "No. That’s stupid."
    She shrugs and looks out the window, "You know that’s
what they're gonna say."
    I can't fight the pained expression as it hits my face.
"I know."
    Lune squeezes my leg, "Don’t listen to them, Lynnie. You
did nothing wrong."
    I turn back around and watch the dark