been so stupid. Stealing a car, joyriding across town, then abandoning it (perhaps after pissing all over the dashboard) was one thing. Not smart, but with a little luck, you could walk away from that sort of deal. But breaking into a place in Sugar Heights? Double stupid. He had wanted nothing in that house (at least nothing he could remember later). And when he did want something? When he offered up his mouth for a few lousy sheets of Blue Horse paper? Punched in the face. So heâd laughed, because that was what Jimmy Gold would have done (at least before Jimmy grew up and sold out for what he called the Golden Buck), and what happened next? Punched in the face again, even harder. It was the muffled crack of his nose breaking that had started him crying.
Jimmy never would have cried.
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He was still looking greedily at the Moleskines when Freddy Dow returned with the other two duffel bags. He also had a scuffed leather carryall. âThis was in the pantry. Along with like a billion cans of beans and tuna fish. Go figure, huh? Weird guy. Maybe he was waiting for the Acropolipse. Come on, Morrie, put it in gear. Someone might have heard that shot.â
âThere arenât any neighbors. Nearest farm is two miles away. Relax.â
âJailsâre full of guys who were relaxed. We need to get out of here.â
Morris began gathering up handfuls of notebooks, but couldnât resist looking in one, just to make sure. Rothstein had been a weird guy, and it wasnât out of the realm of possibility that he had stacked his safe with blank books, thinking he might write something in them eventually.
But no.
This one, at least, was loaded with Rothsteinâs small, neat handwriting, every page filled, top to bottom and side to side, the margins as thin as threads.
âwasnât sure why it mattered to him and why he couldnât sleep as the empty boxcar of this late freight bore him on through rural oblivion toward Kansas City and the sleeping country beyond, the full belly of America resting beneath its customary comforter of night, yet Jimmyâs thoughts persisted in turning back toâ
Freddy thumped him on the shoulder, and not gently. âGet your nose out of that thing and pack up. We already got one puking his guts out and pretty much useless.â
Morris dropped the notebook into one of the duffels and grabbed another double handful without a word, his thoughts brilliant with possibility. He forgot about the mess under the blanket in the living room, forgot about Curtis Rogers puking his guts in the roses or zinnias or petunias or whatever was growing out back. Jimmy Gold! Headed west, in a boxcar! Rothstein hadnât been done with him, after all!
âTheseâre full,â he told Freddy. âTake them out. Iâll put the rest in the valise.â
âThat what you call that kind of bag?â
âI think so, yeah.â He knew so. âGo on. Almost done here.â
Freddy shouldered the duffels by their straps, but lingered a moment longer. âAre you sure about these things? Because Rothstein saidââ
âHe was a hoarder trying to save his hoard. He would have said anything. Go on.â
Freddy went. Morris loaded the last batch of Moleskines into the valise and backed out of the closet. Curtis was standing by Rothsteinâs desk. He had taken off his balaclava; they all had. His face was paper-pale and there were dark shock circles around his eyes.
âYou didnât have to kill him. You werenât supposed to. It wasnât in the plan. Whyâd you do that?â
Because he made me feel stupid. Because he cursed my mother and thatâs my job. Because he called me a kid. Because he needed to be punished for turning Jimmy Gold into one of them . Mostly because nobody with his kind of talent has a right to hide it from the world. Only Curtis wouldnât understand that.
âBecause itâll make the