for any
fun, Ian?”
Of course she knew the answer was no, but she
kept encouraging Ian to put himself out there.
“No, ma’am,” Ian responded. “No time, too
much work to do.”
“Now, Ian,” Jean said as she walked him over to
her private table and gestured over her shoulder to the
bartender to get him whatever he wanted to drink on
the house. “I’ve got a cal on hold in the office, but
when I get off the phone, we’re going to talk about this
some more.” Ian smiled and nodded, because he knew
when Jean had something to say, there was no way out
of it.
He took a seat and ordered a beer from the
waitress and then sat back and waited for the show to
start. Jean’s table was on the back wal on the highest
level and was the perfect spot to watch the audience
and the stage.
As Ian sat there waiting for the newcomer to take
the stage, he thought, as he always did when he visited
Jean, how much things had changed since he’d first
wandered into Jean’s Magnolia Saloon al those years
ago.
He’d just turned twenty-one and was running as
far away from South Carolina as he could get. He
remembered watching Greenvile disappear in his
rearview mirror through teary green eyes as he made his
way out of town. So many emotions were
overwhelming him: anger, love, resentment, but mostly
betrayal. Those were the emotions he knew he would
forever associate with being in love. He’d silently
vowed never to expose himself to the possibility of such
pain again.
He’d looked for the closest route out of town,
and when he’d seen the entrance ramp to Interstate 26,
he’d taken it and headed north. He needed to be as far
away from his repulsive parents and the memories of
South Carolina as his truck would carry him. But
mostly, he needed to be away from Todd Slocum, the
love of his life, the man who had broken him so badly,
he would never be fixed again. He’d had no idea how
he was going to deal with the blinding pain he’d felt at
the hand of the man who had vowed to care for and
love him forever.
He’d driven most of the night. Thirsty and in need
of a bathroom break, he’d searched for an exit. As he
was approaching the next off ramp, a sign read
“Interstate 40 West, Knoxvile, Two Miles.” Shortly
after he merged onto I-40, he saw a bilboard that said,
“Visit the Grand Ole Opry,” and he knew he was going
to Nashvile.
When he’d reached the Nashvile skyline, he’d
gotten a room at a cheap, dirty motel and left in search
of a quiet place to eat and hopefuly to decide what his
next move would be. He’d found a greasy diner and
picked the first thing on the menu. When his food had
come, he’d eaten more out of necessity than desire and
paid the check and left.
He remembered climbing into his truck and being
overtaken by emotion. Folding his arms on the steering
wheel, he’d laid his head down on his arms; the
memories of recent events had seemed to rush at him
with more force than ever. It had taken everything he
had to push his thoughts away as more tears slid out of
his closed eyes and ran down his cheeks. At that
moment, his mind and heart had been so ful he couldn’t
have begun to make any long-term plans. He’d lifted his
head, opened his eyes, and wiped the tears from his
cheeks. Through tear-stained eyes, the neon lights of
Broadway seemed to have an eerie glow that had held
his gaze. At that moment he’d decided he would stay in
Nashvile for a day or two, and when his mind was
clearer and he felt more rested, he would come up with
a game plan.
Out of the corner of his eye, he’d noticed a
flashing neon sign in the next block with a large shape
that seemed to be a flower of some sort. Straining his
eyes, he’d barely made out the writing: Jean’s Magnolia
Saloon. He’d puled his truck onto 2nd Avenue, turned
left, and puled into the parking lot. When he’d opened
the door to the lounge, he was immediately hit with