smileââyeah, you know.â I laugh.
âI could have made some money. We all couldâve,â Jon-Jon says.
See thatâs whatâs been happening with Falter and Meadows students. You go there and run on a bet. No one talks about it and no one really makes any bets, but whenever people plan on actuallyrunning, more than a few people show up. They show up and Jon-Jonâs always there.
I can see why heâs disappointed.
Jetson barks at me.
Jon-Jon looks at the dog. âAnd?â
Jetson growls. Iâm not doing anything. I take a step forward and the dog charges at me. Jon-Jon tugs the leash back.
We all look at the dog.
Weâre all thinking the same thing, but only I really know the real deal.
Still, Iâm not telling. I donât want the last thing people remember of me to be that I caught one, showing symptoms and all.
Jon-Jon glares at me. âDidnât catch anything?â
Brad tries to speak for me, but Jon-Jon raises a hand like heâs some mob boss and a single gesture commands the entire scene.
Then again, itâs kind of like that, actually.
âNo,â I say, âunless you call insomnia demonic.â
âIt should be!â Brad laughs. Brad is so fake.
I want to say itâ I donât know why I hang out with you âbut I wonât. I wonât.
Enoughâs enough.
Jon-Jon doesnât laugh. No one does.
He says something like, âFair enough,â right as the lunch period rings out in the distance. I give this kind of weird, awkward gestureââIt callsââand then I burst out of the scene too quickly, like Iâm trying to tell Jon-Jon that Iâm hiding something. I manage to say, âCatch you later, man,â as casual as I can.
Jon-Jon says something like, âYeah. Weâll talk later.â
The way he said it, it sounded insincere, like a mob boss whoâs already read a victimâs future. He knows. Or he doesnât know. Maybe no one knows. Even I kind of push it aside. Itâs easy when thereâs so much stuff going on.
It isnât until after school that the activity continues.
Like it waited patiently for me to return home.
Last thing I want to do is have to sit and eat dinner with the parents. Momâs cooking is all ShakeâN Bake, out-of-the-box premade stuff. Sheâs got all those clients to worry about, and when youâre lawyering it up, dinner and family and all that stuff isnât top priority. And Dad, donât get me started on Dad.
Even when heâs pretending to care, in the back of his mind heâs thinking about the latest cancer patient of his.
Itâs not just money with them. Itâs like, well, itâs like what Iâve seen in so many movies. The job becomes you.
So when I get back from school and all I want is to crash for a few hours, Mom calls me into the kitchen like a home-cooked meal is a surprise.
âSon, dinnerâs almost ready.â
I watch her pull out meat loaf from the oven.
âItâs four thirty.â
âEarly bird special,â she says, and chuckles.
I head up the stairs, but sheâs not letting me get away easy today.
âWhere do you think youâre going?â she says from the foot of the stairs. Sheâs still wearing those oven mitts. Makes her look ridiculous.
âGetting a hoodie, Mom.â I point in the direction of my room. âItâs cold in here.â
âAre you feeling all right?â
Enough with thatâbut she wonât stop with the questions. Like she really cares. Whenever sheâs around, she tries to be supermom. Whenever sheâs around, itâs usually because she lost a case, so sheâs feeling depressed. Feeling depressed for my crazy mom translates to: smother Hunter. Turning up the parenting to 150 percent hurts everybody.
At the dinner table, I canât sit still.
Mom asks me if I feel okay.
âJust cold,