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“How long have you been here?”
    She appeared to ponder for a moment as she shuffled backwards on the bed and rested her back on the wall behind her, bringing up her knees so she could hug them. The silk robe she had been given slipped open, each section falling in a soft pile either side of her. I was glad she had her legs tucked up; otherwise I would have been treated to a view of something I would rather not have had. “Around three months.”
    My eyes widened as my mouth fell open. “What?” My heart beat frantically as my throat closed in. “I can’t… I can’t stay here that long!”
    She shrugged casually. “It’s not like you have a choice, princess.”
    I couldn’t work out if she was making fun of me, or just using the endearment trivially. “But…” I swallowed back the sob and curled further into myself. I was so tired of crying. My eyes were sore, my throat was sore, my brain was sore. Even my lips had started to crack, the once soft flesh now blistered and tender. Exhaustion had settled in and taken the fight I had found earlier.
    We fell into silence for a while before I started questioning her again. “Can I ask you something?” She nodded, her eyes once again finding my face. “I know this may sound like a weird question but do you know who you are?”
    She frowned at me as though I was stupid. “Yes.” It was spoken with incredulity, one of her eyebrows elevated high on her forehead. “Don’t you?”
    I shook my head briskly. “No. I… there’s nothing in my head. The only memories I have are the ones I have created from being here. There’s nothing at all before here. I don’t know who I am. I don’t know how old I am, or what I like for breakfast. I don’t know what my favorite color is, or what I prefer to drink. I don’t know who my girlfriends are. I don’t know if I have a boyfriend. I don’t even know what damn shoe size I am.” Maria stared at me with wide eyes throughout my outburst, her eyes widening further which each of my revelations. “The only thing I know is that my name is Star, and… and I’m scared.”
    I looked around the room nervously when she didn’t answer me. I had never felt so alone in my life, even though my life now only consisted of a few days. My heart ached as my soul reached out for some comfort. I chewed on my nails when the silence grew uncomfortable. “Why did you do that?” I blurted out. “Do that to… to him ?” I added when she looked at me blankly.
    “Suck his cock?” she asked, smirking when I blushed at her words. I nodded, too embarrassed to speak. She straightened her legs and leaned forward, resting her palms on the tops of her thighs. “Honey, you’ll soon learn to do anything, as long as it makes life in here easier.”
    “But… that ?”
    She shrugged. “What’s a blowjob if it grants you luxuries and his affection?” She sighed and smiled warmly at me. “Look, Hun. I don’t have the words to make you feel any better about being here, but I speak from experience when I say I would rather be on his good side than his bad, and if that means pleasuring him sexually, then I will. But don’t worry, he doesn’t fuck you, he never actually fucks. It’s just oral pleasure he seeks.”
    I nodded but her calmness shocked me. How could anyone allow themselves to do things like that, especially to a person they despised? Or maybe I had read her wrong, maybe she didn’t despise him, maybe she felt something for him. I’d heard of captives falling for their kidnappers – Stockholm syndrome. Many different thoughts raced around my mind when I realized I could fall into that trap; end up feeling something for the man who disgusted every fiber of my being.
    We both turned towards the door when it opened. The man who had blasted the icy water on me in the shower walked in. His eyes moved from me to Maria then back again. He placed two bottles of water on the floor, then a bowl containing what looked like soup, with