this happy again.â
âWere you?â
âWas I what?â
âEver that happy again?â
âOf course I was. Youâre never just happy
once
in your life. Life isnât like that.â She paused. âWill you have a small Drambuie with me? Itâs up there in the cupboard over the fridge. Yes, there, right behind your hand. Could you heat it up? Just put it in those snifters and pop it into the microwave.â
âDid Marek like Drambuie?â
Deadpan. Eyebrows raised. âMarek liked everything. Itâs wonderful to be with a man who adores a womanâs body. Every inch of it. But wait.â She pointed to the microwave. âYes. Thirty seconds should be enough.â
âIs that too hot?â
âNo, itâs perfect. Smell that. Iâve been saving this for a rainy day.â
I sat back down. It was eleven oâclock.
âMy little sailboats caught on. I did a craft show in Memphis. A rep from a middle-sized American chain saw my stuff and bought me out. I like that about Americans, how they do business. They come in, they look around, and they write a cheque. No pussyfooting. So suddenly there I was, with a bunch of money and two teenage children. What to do?
âPeter Ungster was trying on a new hat in my mirror, and he said in that funny voice, âWhy donât you move to
Mex
ico? Thereâs an artistsâ colony in San Miguel de Allende. That sounds like baloney, I know, and there
is
a lot of baloney down there, but not entirely. You could open a little shopâyou could paintâdo whatever you want. Leonard Cohen lives there. Or people
say
he lives there. Nobody ever seems to
see
him. For a while I had a friend there, an antique collector,
soi-disant
, but it turned out he was just looking for some Mexican boy to fuck him in the bum and leave him for dead. Which isnât far from what happened. But donât get me get started on that one.â
âSo I went. San Miguel is a pretty town nine thousand feet up in the air with a sweeping cathedral right in the centre. Somebody in the Cucaracha bar told me it was designed entirely from a single European postcard. But people start drinking early in those towns and they kind of make stuff up. One moment itâs not true, next moment it is. No one seems to care.
âI took Chloe with me. She was twelve years old. I couldnât leave her with Bruce. That would have been like leaving her in a black-and-white television show. Besides, she wanted to go. She was very adventurous. She could hardly wait.â
âWhat did Bruce say?â
âHe threatened to take me to court. But I called his bluff. I wasnât rattled by him anymore. I said, âOkay, Bruce, Iâll leave her up here with you.â That scared the shit out of him. He wasnât a mean spirit, he just didnât want me to have my cake and eat it too. As if youâd do anything else with your cake
except
eat it. But the notion of a gangly, phone-hogging, incessantly hungry, expensive, operatic teenage girl running up and down the stairs with a pair of school friends really shook him up.â
âSo he folded?â
âLike a deck chair. In fact, he
gave
me money. He pretended it was for Chloeâs expenses, but I think it was to make sure she actually
went.
â
âAnd her brother, Kyle? Can I ask what happened there?â
Her face clouded. âYou know that story,â she said softly. âI made a mistake. I was so hungry to be happy that I made a mistake.â She looked toward the window.
I said, âWe donât haveââ but she went on.
âKyle was seventeen. He wanted to stay with his friends. Besides, I didnât want to strip Bruce of everything. I worried heâd kill himself. But I should have tried harder, I should have insisted.â
I could see her sinking into a fog of distress. I said, âDid he know about Marek?â
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