Father was quite differentâ¦.
She puzzled over it. Father coming down to take her out from school. Father taking her once for a cruise. And Father at homeâwith Arlena there. Allâall sort of bottled up and notâand not there.
Linda thought:
âAnd itâll go on like this. Day after dayâmonth after month. I canât bear it.â
Life stretched before herâendlessâin a series of days darkened and poisoned by Arlenaâs presence. She was childish enough still to have little sense of proportion. A year, to Linda, seemed like an eternity.
A big dark burning wave of hatred against Arlena surged up in her mind. She thought:
âIâd like to kill her. Oh! I wish sheâd dieâ¦.â
She looked out above the mirror on to the sea below.
This place was really rather fun. Or it could be fun. All those beaches and coves and queer little paths. Lots to explore. And places where one could go off by oneself and muck about. There were caves, too, so the Cowan boys had told her.
Linda thought:
âIf only Arlena would go away, I could enjoy myself.â
Her mind went back to the evening of their arrival. It had been exciting coming from the mainland. The tide had been up over the causeway. They had come in a boat. The hotel had looked exciting, unusual. And then on the terrace a tall dark woman had jumped up and said:
âWhy, Kenneth!â
And her father, looking frightfully surprised, had exclaimed:
âRosamund!â
Linda considered Rosamund Darnley severely and critically in the manner of youth.
She decided that she approved of Rosamund. Rosamund, she thought, was sensible. And her hair grew nicelyâas though it fitted herâmost peopleâs hair didnât fit them. And her clothes were nice. And she had a kind of funny amused faceâas though it were amused at herself, not at you. Rosamund had been nice to her, Linda. She hadnât been gushing or said things. (Under the term of âsaying thingsâ Linda grouped a mass of miscellaneous dislikes.) And Rosamund hadnât looked as though she thought Linda a fool. In fact sheâd treated Linda as though she was a real human being. Linda so seldom felt like a real human being that she was deeply grateful when anyone appeared to consider her one.
Father, too, had seemed pleased to see Miss Darnley.
Funnyâheâd looked quite different, all of a sudden. Heâdlookedâheâd lookedâLinda puzzled it outâwhy, young, that was it! Heâd laughedâa queer boyish laugh. Now Linda came to think of it, sheâd very seldom heard him laugh.
She felt puzzled. It was as though sheâd got a glimpse of quite a different person. She thought:
âI wonder what Father was like when he was my ageâ¦?â
But that was too difficult. She gave it up.
An idea flashed across her mind.
What fun it would have been if theyâd come here and found Miss Darnley hereâjust she and Father.
A vista opened out just for a minute. Father, boyish and laughing, Miss Darnley, herselfâand all the fun one could have on the islandâbathingâcavesâ
The blackness shut down again.
Arlena. One couldnât enjoy oneself with Arlena about. Why not? Well, she, Linda, couldnât anyway. You couldnât be happy when there was a person there youâhated. Yes, hated. She hated Arlena.
Very slowly again that black burning wave of hatred rose up again.
Lindaâs face went very white. Her lips parted a little. The pupils of her eyes contracted. And her fingers stiffened and clenched themselvesâ¦.
III
Kenneth Marshall tapped on his wifeâs door. When her voice answered, he opened the door and went in.
Arlena was just putting the finishing touches to her toilet. Shewas dressed in glittering green and looked a little like a mermaid. She was standing in front of the glass applying mascara to her eyelashes. She said:
âOh, itâs
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