short of staring at me, sort of wistfully. Weirdly . . .
It hits me. âThereâs more.â
âSheâs going to stay with TÃa Rosa.â
I nod. âGo on.â
âBut like I said, she isnât in great shape, and she hasnât seen her sisters in years. I donât want her here all alone. She needs someone to stay with her.â He swallows. âEmily, she needs you. You have to stay here with your mother.â
Three
A unt Rosaâs house looks different when itâs empty. Not bigger, though, like youâd think. Instead itâs filled with clutter: big, overstuffed chairs strewn with throw pillows, bright books and school supplies that probably belong to her younger daughters; inexpensive, simple jewelry that might be Lucyâs. Itâs not like Isabelleâs house, where the televisions are flat screen and the sofas are sectional. Itâs not even like my house, where the doorways between rooms are thick and molded. Rosa lives in RÃo Piedras, which is the primary suburb of San Juan, very middle-class.
Compared to Isabelle and Adrienne, Iâm middle-class, but thinking about that, making direct comparisons between my home in New York and Rosaâsââ TÃa Rosa,â as she has asked me to call herâmakes me feel suddenly, inexplicably guilty.
âAnd our washing machine is in the back, in the room behind the kitchen,â TÃa Rosa says, finishing up on a grand tour of the place. There is a kitchen, a living room, a den, the basement where Max had sought sweet refuge, and four bedrooms. Four bedrooms seem like a lot until you realize that one belongs to Rosa, who has been on her own since her husband died four years ago; one belongs to Lucy; and one is shared between Lucyâs three younger sisters, Pilar, Ana, and Dora.
Lucyâs older brother, José, has his own room as well. This hardly seems fair given how little time he spends at homeâat least, as far as Iâve seen, which admittedly isnât that much.
Anyway, heâs not home now.
Pilar, who is thirteen, canât seem to bring herself to care about the washer-dryer combo, not that I blame her. Ana and Dora, who are ten and eight, respectively, gaze at their mother with appropriate if practiced admiration.
Lucy stands off to one side. Her hand is on her hip, and she is trying not to pout. I note that she is either not trying all that hard or not succeeding.
âGloria, you andââshe chokes on my name brieflyââ Emily will stay in Lucyâs room.â
âThanks, Lucy,â I say, trying to coax the sourpuss off her face. âThatâs really cool of you to share. We donât snore, I promise.â
She shrugs. âIt doesnât matter. Iâm going to stay in the girlsâ room.â
My face must give me away because TÃa Rosa quickly jumps in. âDonât worry, chica , thereâs plenty of room. We just wanted to be sure that you and your mother have enough privacy.â
Lucyâs expression does not change. I donât think sheâs blinked in, like, twenty minutes. The surface of her eyeballs must be burning.
âLucy, show them the room,â TÃa Rosa says.
Dutifully Lucy jerks her head toward us and then shuffles down a short hallway. Pilar and Ana grab at my mother and my suitcases, shooing us away when we offer to take them ourselves. Of course, the bags arenât that heavyâweâd only packed for a weekend. But still, there is something slightly off about seeing my ten-year-old cousin hoisting my belongings for me.
Lucy stops in her doorway. âItâs not exactly a mansion ,â she says, edgy.
I peer in.
Sheâs right; itâs not. But itâs not exactly a shack, either. Itâs just big enough to house a twin bed, a desk, a bureau, and a bookcase, all in matching white wood. Thereâs a poster on the wall of a tejano star I vaguely recognize from