all over me, banged my nose. Jamie had nothing to do with it. Honest.â
Mr Atkins nodded slowly. He didnât look at all surprised. Just sad.
They sent me home. I didnât want to go, but Miss Palmer gave me no choice. She said it was her duty of care when a head injury was involved. I couldnât remember my phone number. It had only been connected a couple of days. So Miss Palmer rang Dad on his mobile â heâd given them that when heâd enrolled me â and he gave permission to send me home in a taxi. Iâd hoped to keep all this between Mary and me. It was a dim hope and now it had been totally blown.
âFell over a tree, eh, Michael?â Mary said after I had repeated the story Iâd given Miss Palmer.
âYeah,â I said.
âFace first into a piece of chocolate cake?â
âYup.â
âMust have been funny.â
âI guess so.â
âShocking waste of cake, though.â
We both laughed then. Thatâs the thing with Mary. She doesnât push me. She knew all right. But she also understood I wouldnât talk about it and she respected that. Sometimes I donât know what Iâd do without her.
Dad, however, was not happy when he came home from work.
âYouâre there five bloody minutes! Jesus Christ, Michael. What happened? And donât give me that crap about tree roots again, cos I donât buy it. Someone picked on you because youâre fat, right? Did you fight back? Nah. Come on. Tell me.â
I shrugged, kept my head down and pushed lettuce around my plate. If I said nothing heâd get angrier. If I told the truth heâd be even worse. Heâd go on for hours about how I was a coward and he was ashamed of me. Mary tried to help out.
âLeave him alone, Joe. He doesnât want to talk about it. It was his first day, for Godâs sake, and heâs upset.â
Dad flung down his knife and fork.
âWill you bloody answer me?â
âI told you. I fell,â I said.
âDrop it, Joe. Please?â said Mary.
Dad picked up his knife and fork again.
âI donât know whatâs the matter with you. Iâve tried to get you to do judo or karate lessons. Iâve taught you a bit of boxing. If you fight, you avoid trouble, thatâs all Iâm saying. With some of these bastards, a good hiding would solve a lot of their problems. Theyâd think twice about bullying then.â
âI donât want to fight, Dad.â
Dad pointed his fork at me.
âThen lose some weight. Sitting there like a whale. Itâs disgusting. No wonder you get bullied. You canât expect kids not to take the piss. Iâm not saying itâs right, because it isnât. Iâm just saying youâve got to expect it. And there are two answers to the problem. You gotta fight back or lose weight. Itâs that simple.â
âItâs not that simple, Joe,â said Mary. âItâs not.â
Dad flung his knife and fork down again.
âIâm sick of this. Everywhere we go, itâs the same. Iâm bloody ashamed of you.â
âYou donât mean that Joe. And if youâre sick of it, how do you think he feels?â
Dad pushed his plate away and got to his feet.
âI donât give a stuff. Thatâs it. Get bullied, but donât whine to me.â
I had never whined to him. I never would. But there was no point saying anything. So I sat, eyes on the lettuce, while he put his jacket on.
âIâm going to the pub,â he said. âAnd you can clean this dinner crap up. Itâs all youâre good for, God knows.â
After the door slammed, we sat there for a while. Mary reached over and ran her hand through my hair.
âHe doesnât mean it, Michael. Heâs had a bad first day at work. Makes two of you, doesnât it? Hey, come on. Cheer up. Tell me more about that nice girl you met at school today.