was determined to give it my best shot.
âGis another round Shirl,â I said.
âReally, Don?â she asked me. âYou ought to be getting off home, duck.â
I looked up at her from my position half slumped over the bar. Shirley was an absolute sweetheart, a proper old-fashioned East End matriarch. What she was doing in the haunted wilds of South London I never had found out, but she kept a nice pub.
âCome on Duchess, itâs cold out there,â I said, mustering what passed for a grin. It was a pretty piss-poor effort in all honesty, but considering that all I wanted to do was break down and cry it would have to do. âGis another.â
I waved a twenty at her and she sighed and pulled me a pint. She set a whisky chaser down beside it and smiled sadly.
âPenny for âem,â she said.
I shook my head. âNah,â I said. âTrust me, treacle, you donât want to know.â
I didnât want to know, thatâs why I was in there in the first place. I canât tell you how much I didnât want to know what I had done that night. Fucking disaster didnât even come close to it. I drank off the top of the lager and upended the whisky into my pint glass. I was on a fucking mission to oblivion and no mistake. I gave the drink a swish around and drank.
You rely on that bloody thing too much, I told myself, thinking of the Burned Man and how it had looked at me, afterwards.
I remembered the very first time I had worked a proper job with it, and how it had laughed at me. Summoning and sending is complicated, and kind of misnamed. Summoning is just what it sounds like, making something appear before the circle so you can talk to it, ask it questions or make deals with it, whatever. Summoning and sending though, when you want to set something on someone, is a bit different. If you want your demon to savage someone in Paris, say, and youâre in London, you donât actually call it to where you are and then wait around while it flies or swims or fucking hitchhikes to Paris. What you do is, you focus your Will on where your target is and you use your summoning circle to call up your demon and send it straight there, to where you want it to be. Obviously you canât see Paris or wherever it might be, so you use a scrying glass to see through your demonâs eyes instead.
The beautiful part of that is youâre in its head, and that means you can control it properly. I mean really control it if you want to, like youâre wearing the thing. The ugly part of that is that youâre in its head. Trust me, inside the head of the kind of demon you use for this sort of thing is not a nice place to be. Anyway, the first time we did this the Burned Man had laughed itself silly at me.
âJust let it be,â it told me, âit knows its business.â
âWhat if it gets loose?â I asked it.
The Burned Man had gestured at the grand summoning circle around me, at the carefully inscribed glyphs and all the expensive ingredients.
âWhat do you think all this shit is for?â it asked me. âIt canât get loose, thatâs the whole fucking point. Just let it do its thing and itâll run off home again afterwards like a good little vorehound.â
It was right, of course, but all the same I couldnât help staying with my demon just to make sure. The moment it attacked and I felt my mouth fill with hot human blood the whole thing suddenly lost its appeal.
The next time I gave the demon its head just before it attacked. The time after, I only rode it long enough to make sure it had got to the right place. Ever since then I had settled for just watching in the scrying glass to make sure the job got done. Tonight I hadnât even really done that, and look what had fucking happened.
âItâs her fault,â I said.
âOh pet, it always is,â Shirl laughed. âWho is she this time, and what did she do to