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she went. Her heart thumped all the way up to his floor in the elevator.
    They were in his bed thirty seconds after she knocked on the door.
    Again, they didn’t sleep together. Just everything else. In her mind, that made it less bad.
    “What now?” she asked Bennett.
    “What do you mean?” he asked, and she knew that nothing was different. Nothing had changed at all.
    She wasn’t sure what to tell Cooper. She wasn’t sure why she’d done it. She loved Cooper, didn’t she? True, she had felt some relief when she realized that hooking up with Bennett probably meant they were done. What she and Cooper had was too good, too easy. It was bound to end eventually.
    But when Cooper showed up at her door a week later and smelled like home and hugged her so tight she thought she would burst—in a good way—she decided that she would only tell him one thing.
    “I missed you,” was all she said.
    She felt guilty. Every day the guilt ate up a little more inside her like a tapeworm.
    That was why she’d gotten the flu shot. As punishment. She deserved it.
    This was what Mackenzie was thinking about at eleven a.m. on Wednesday morning in Mr. Gilbert’s calculus class. Thinking very loudly, as it turned out.
    She was not paying attention to Gilbert in the slightest. She was twirling a curl around her index finger and remembering. She turned to the window and realized that Tess was staring at her, eyes wide open in shock.
    “What?” Mackenzie whispered.
    “Did that really happen?” Tess whispered back.
    Mackenzie had no idea what Tess was talking about. “Did what really happen?”
    Tess leaned in closer. “You cheated on Cooper?”
    Mackenzie’s heart raced. “I did not.” Had Bennett said something? He wouldn’t. He wasn’t the kind of guy to kiss and tell. Anyway, they didn’t have any friends in common. And she hadn’t breathed a word to anyone.
    “You were just talking about it,” Tess whispered. “Two seconds ago.”
    “I was not!” Mackenzie couldn’t believe it. What was Tess trying to pull?
    Tess shook her head. “I’m not trying to pull anything!”
    “Girls,” Gilbert said, turning from the blackboard. “You’re both excused.”
    Crap. Mackenzie was already in trouble with Gilbert for always handing in her homework late. She was in trouble with all her teachers, actually. “But—”
    “Goodbye,” he said. “Next time don’t disrupt the class.”
    Mackenzie sighed. She and Tess collected their books and headed to the door.
    At least, Mackenzie figured, she’d be able to find out how Tess knew about her and Bennett. Maybe Tess was just guessing. Although Mackenzie had been thinking about it. Had she been talking out loud? Mumbling to herself? No one else had heard her. Maybe she’d been mouthing the words and Tess had read her lips. Did Tess know how to do that? Mackenzie doubted it. Tess didn’t have any secret skills.
    The two girls stepped outside.
    Tess’s eyes were bugging out of her head. She definitely knew something.
    This was not good. Not good at all. Mackenzie hadn’t told a single person what had happened with Bennett over the summer.
    No one was supposed to know.
    Even Tess. She loved Tess, but she couldn’t tell her something like that. Tess looked up to her. Mackenzie liked that Tess looked up to her. And Tess would think she should tell Cooper the truth.
    Mackenzie couldn’t tell Cooper. He’d break up with her. And then what? She’d lose him. He’d hate her.
    We can’t help wondering if she wanted to lose him all along.
    Still, tears burned the backs of her eyelids. Her heart raced. Her head hurt. Her mouth was really dry. She needed a Diet Coke. Or one of Bennett’s joints. No, no, nothing about Bennett. That was what had gotten her into this mess in the first place.
    How had Tess found out?
    I can’t believe she hooked up with Bennett again. He’s such a user.
    “Excuse me?” Mackenzie asked, hands on her hips.
    Tess took a step back. “I didn’t say