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School. And now here I am, watching her long fingers pop open the top button on her jeans for me while I stroke her tits in the rhododendron bushes down Crab Lane on the way home, and it makes me feel so fucking good.
    ‘Not here, don’t be daft,’ she says in a little while, but both of us are panting like steam engines by then. Wow! I mean! I stood back and watched as she did up her zip and pushed the button back into place.
    ‘You should wear a skirt,’ I said. It felt like my blood had turned into boiling hot soup. That’s what she does to me. I felt like a cow in the slaughterhouse with a bolt going through its head.
    ‘More accessible,’ she said.
    I can be a bit of an arse sometimes. I admit it. I’m my own worst enemy. I couldn’t help it. I stood there watching her zipping up, I was almost mad with lust and I was thinking how she never wore a skirt or a dress for me. I was thinking, This is how it’s gonna go. We’ll go home to my place, I’ll strip her to the waist, we’ll get our hands down each other’s pants and spend about an hour writhing around like a pair of earthworms … and that’s it. That’s as far as it was going to go. Her jeans would not go below her hips.
    You know? It’s been a month now, a whole month and I’m still a virgin. I mean, it’s practically like I was saving myself for her, because there’s loads of other girls I could have had. You ask anyone, there’s loads of girls would love to go out with me, they’d shag me tomorrow if I just went up and asked. It’s like that. You get my point? And she won’t. So what’s that all about?
    You don’t know Jackie. She’s as stubborn as a brick in a wall. She smiled at me and walked out of the bushes and onto the road, and I knew I should have kept my mouth shut but I just started before I even had time to think about it.
    ‘I’ve got some contraceptives,’ I said.
    ‘No,’ said Jackie. Then she added under her breath, ‘Not this again.’
    ‘But you want to, why not?’ I asked. I slid my hand down her arse and tickled her crack.
    ‘Get off me! Not here.’ She wriggled away. ‘I’m not a bloody dog or something.’
    ‘What’s up with you? You didn’t mind a minute ago.’
    ‘That was in there.’
    ‘You’d sleep with me if you loved me.’
    ‘Dino, stop it!’
    ‘It’s true.’
    ‘What’s love got to do with it? You don’t love me.’
    ‘I
do
love you,’ I said.
    ‘Dino!’
    ‘I do!’
    ‘You don’t know what love is.’
    That’s how she goes on at me. Like I’m some sort of kid. As if I’m ten years old and she’s about twenty-something.
    ‘But don’t you love me, then?’ I said.
    She looked at me closely. ‘I like you very much.’
    ‘Is that all? Like? Just
like
?’
    ‘Anyway, even if I did love you, I wouldn’t sleep with you.’
    ‘What?’
    ‘I don’t want to talk about it.’
    ‘I want to know. I’m interested,’ I whined. I could hear myself whining, but I still couldn’t stop myself. ‘I just want to know. I mean, is it me? Is there something about me you don’t like? Is there something wrong with me?’
    ‘It just doesn’t feel right.’
    ‘It felt pretty good with Simon.’
    ‘Leave it!’
    ‘So what was so great about Simon? Why aren’t you going out with him? What’s the difference between him and me?’
    ‘Well, he was eight years older than you for a start.’
    ‘Oh, right. I’m too young, am I? Not mature enough for you?’ I was really pissed off but I knew I shouldn’t be going on like that, I was really blowing my chances. I just can’t help it sometimes. ‘I get it. I’m stupid. I’m just a kid. You’re all so grown up and I’m not!’
    ‘You’re behaving like a kid,’ said Jackie coldly.
    ‘I don’t behave like a kid – you do!’ I yelled.
    And that was it. She was off, pulling her coat around her and storming off down the road. I thought, Shit! Why do I do this? I mean, I don’t mind having a row. I don’t mind throwing