Standing Orders Sub-Committee booklet.
The shingle crunched beneath Lindsayâs feet as she charged headlong down the beach. At the waterâs edge she stopped, her chest heaving for breath, her eyes stinging with unshed tears. She stared out at the gray Irish Sea, glad of its bleakness. Recovering herself, she squatted down to make herself a smaller target for the sharp northerly wind. She pulled a crushed packet of cigarettes out of her pocket, straightened one out, cupped a hand round her lighter and inhaled deeply. In spite of the cancer that had taken three months from its diagnosis to kill Frances, Lindsay still couldnât bring herself to quit. Most days she felt only the nicotine and the caffeine were holding her together.
Three hellish months, trying to come to terms with the one adversary that wouldnât accept anything other than total surrender. Three months watching death inch closer and closer to the woman she loved. Three months trying to accept the
unacceptable. Then that last week, when Frances was beyond words, beyond the defiance that had insisted on Lindsayâs rights in the face of her intransigent family. They had done what neither life nor cancer could; they had separated Lindsay and Frances. When the news finally came, it had been from one of the workers at the hospice. At the funeral, Lindsay had stood apart, flanked by a couple of close friends, the ultimate spectre at the feast. That had been five weeks ago, and nothing was getting any easier.
She dragged the last lungful of smoke out of her cigarette and flicked the stub into the waves. Moments later, she jumped with shock as a warm wet tongue licked her ear. Lindsay straightened up, nearly toppling over in the process, and stared down at a golden retriever, tongue hanging out, shaggy coat dripping with salt water, tail wagging amiably.
A breathless voice behind her called, âBecky! Come here.â Lindsay turned to see Laura bearing down on her. The dog didnât move. âOh, Lindsay, itâs you. Iâm sorry, she thinks everybody was put on the planet to play with her.â
âNo problem. I was miles away, or I would have heard her.â Lindsay reached down and fondled the dogâs damp, silky ears. âSheâs a beauty,â she added rather stiffly.
âI couldnât resist her,â Laura admitted. âShe belonged to a friend of mine who was transferred to Brussels. Of course she couldnât take Becky with her. She was about to advertise for a good home for her when . . . well, when my circumstances changed and made it possible for me to have her. But then, I suppose you know all about that,â she said in tones of resignation.
âI just donât understand how you could do that to him,â Lindsay said in a much cooler tone than the dog had been granted. She studied Laura, speculating how much time it took in the morning to shape that flowing crest of chestnut hair, and how much of the problem with the ozone layer could be laid at the door of her hair spray. Even walking the dog on Blackpool beach, Laura had managed to achieve an air of elegance that Lindsay would have been hard pressed to match at a formal dinner.
Laura raised her perfectly shaped eyebrows. Beneath them, her eyes were wary. âSo heâs been discussing our private business with all and sundry,â she said coldly.
Lindsay felt the color rise in her cheeks. âYou screw around with someone else behind his back and you expect him to keep his mouth shut for the sake of your reputation?â
Laura took a startled step back. âHe told you that?â
âHe had to talk to someone, Laura. And in spite of what you think, Iâm not all and sundry. Ianâs my friend, and as far as Iâm concerned, what you did to him is a shitâs trick. And on top of it all, to turn up with Becky in tow, when you of all people know how allergic he is to dogs. What a slap in the face! You