would he care?â
I thought about this. âYou mean since he intended to kill himself anyway.â
âRight. Why bother to hide where you got the guns?â
âUnless he got them from a friend.â I suggested.
âNot a friend. Somebody who put him up to this,â Seese said.
âWell, who did he hang out with?â
That was a question Seese didnât seem to want to answer. Probably because the answer was: Seese. After shrugging his shoulders and looking around, he said in a low voice: âIâll bet itâs on that USB drive. But itâs not in his locker, is it?â
I shook my head.
âThe cops probably found it,â he said.
âIf they did, how come nobody else was ever accused of helping Cale?â I asked.
He had no answer for that.
chapter six
I DECLINED SEESEâS offer of a rideâseemed like everybody had a car but meâand he went off.
I had one other thing I wanted to do. I found my way to the school library, where I hoped to find out what kinds of books Cale had checked out.
I expected the new librarian to look like the old one, Ms. Robbins, whoâd been one of Caleâs victims. Instead, I found a babe-a-licious cutie hanging up posters urging people to read. It crossed my mind that the library was going to be a more popular place this year.
Blonde, wearing jeans and a white cotton pullover that stuck out in the right places, she gave me a huge smile. Bump. I introduced myself, and she said, âIâm Ms. Clement.â She shook my hand. Her skin was unbelievably soft, and I almost didnât let go. âYouâre my first customer,â she said. âEven before school starts. You must be a wonderful reader.â
âUh, yeah, I like books,â I said, without adding that it would be difficult for any male student to think about books when she was around.
âWho are you favorite authors?â she asked.
And of course my mind went blank. I had a smile on my face that froze, along with everything else above the neck. Author, authorâ¦
âDr. Seuss.â It just popped out before I could stop it.
She noddedâsympathetically, I thought, because what else would you feel for a high-school senior who liked to read Dr. Seuss books?
âHeâs not the only one,â I said desperately.
âI donât know if we have any of his books,â she said, looking vaguely at the shelves. âMaybe youâd like something moreâ¦â She didnât know how to say âsomething with more wordsâ without offending me.
âThatâs O.K.,â I said. âI really came here because Iâm writing an article for the school newspaper.â
âYou are?â She couldnât hide her surprise. I mean, how could you write articles with only a fifty-word vocabulary?
âYes. Itâs a memorial to those who wereâ¦â I didnât want to say âkilledâ or âshot,â particularly here in the library. But she got the idea.
âThatâs very sweet,â she said. Obviously she thought I was doing this on my own and nobody would ever print what I wrote.
âAnd I needed to know what kinds of books they read.â I really wanted to know what Cale had read, but including everyone else made it more of an innocent request.
She frowned. It was such a cute frown that I almost patted her arm. âI donât know if I can release that information,â she said.
âYou canât? Why not? I meanâ¦.â I avoided saying the obvious: Theyâre dead. Who cares?
âItâs a privacy issue,â she told me. âWe should respect their privacy.â
I was desperate. âHow about just Cale Peters? Could you tell me what books he took out?â
She shook her head, frowning more seriously now. I could tell I wasnât going to win this argument. âIn his case,â she said, âthereâs another issue besides
Janwillem van de Wetering